Dear Life, The year 2020 began with new challenges including diagnosis of Lymphoma, loss of a dear friend (2 years today; I miss you Allan) and the pandemic. I received the R-CHOP chemotherapy Feb – May and lost my hair. I participated in a workshop “Write To Heal” sponsored by the Cancer Foundation. We met via Zoom because of quarantine. Today, the “interlopers”, cancer and Covid, are still here, being dealt with on a daily basis. Be safe.
Here is another piece of my writing from last week’s reading:

3.31.20 Falling Apart
Who is this that has entered the house of my body
And taken up residency
Changing the draperies, moving the furniture, pulling up rugs
Wallpapering with patterns never seen

What are you doing here
Demanding space be made for you
All the movements have changed
With our new arrangement

Here we are now in the silence
Here we are now in the cacophony
Here we are now in the harmony
Here we are now in the symphony

And I have stopped resisting
And I sit with you daily
And I listen when you speak
And I hear a new voice deep within

Look here and see the sorrow
Look here and see the shadows
Look here and see the infusion of light
Look here and see the fibrous marrow

Stay still and know I am here for you
Stay still and know I am helping you
Stay still and know I am a part of you
Stay still and know I will leave you

And this visit will bear lessons and gifts
And this visit will witness your life
And this visit will bring new experiences
And this visit will come to pass

Be with me, talk with me, create with me
Be with me, scream with me, cry with me
Be with me, surrender with me, rest with me
Be with me, love with me

And I will live and die with you
a thousand lives and deaths through eternity
Pamela Markoya copyright 2020