Dear Life, What does saying YES to life look like? Buying the yellow tulips for me and flowers for someone else, walking 10,000 steps, hearing a friend’s concerns about Covid, sitting in solitude, painting, listening to rock and roll, laughing, crying, cleaning the house, planning a trip, listening to my daughter’s voice, loving, living in this day, this moment. Thank You Life. Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I painted this watercolor after doctor visit. Primary Colors. All colors are made from three: blue, yellow, red. My life is lived from this primary purpose: Stay sober, help others, and take loving care of myself. Love Life and Live. I told the MRI Tech a story: his MRI machine makes sounds like contemporary electronic music. You have to wear ear plugs for that, too. We laughed and he’s thinking of changing careers: DJ! Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, PET Scan points to Slow B Cell Lymphoma in my shoulders and hips however not conclusive. Blood tests are perfect, contradicting scans. Chemo eliminated this cancer and Aggressive Large Cell last year. Next week, another radiologist reads scan/MRI. In three weeks, blood tests and possibly a bone marrow biopsy. Slow B Cell Lymphoma is chronic but manageable. I am assured there will be no chemo but oral medication to manage this, if needed. Welcome to the world of the “cancer club”. I have a great team of doctors and a “fellowship” of loving support. This morning while writing in bed, my Spirit made me laugh. I affirmed, “I am strong, wise, brave, sober and courageous EVEN AFTER I get out of bed!” So, here I go into the day, a Spiritual Warrior. Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Today at 2:00 pm is blood work, oncologist and results of scan/MRI and tests. Every time I go into the hospital, Cancer Center, and doctor’s office, I go with faith. No matter what the circumstances, no matter the results, I know I am loved and given everything I need. Thank you for walking with me on this life’s journey. I feeling a bit on pins and needles! Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Slept well and feel good. At 9:00am, I get an MRI. Later at 3:30pm, receiving first vaccine shot in Santa Fe. I’m affirming: I am a magnet for radiant health. I certainly get enough x-rays to be a glowing! Thanks for keeping me in your thoughts. Yours Truly, Pamela Rose Glow Bug
Dear Life, There are times when I am in challenging circumstances and ask myself, “How are you going to be in this?” I call this “When the rubber meets the road.” Can I walk my talk, be patient and kind and loving? Today I march forward with all of you in love and trust. Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I received a gift box from Arlene containing a Full Moon card, a small plate and the Sister Journal she wrote in every day while I went through chemo treatments last year. I wrote a journal too and now am reading both journals along with the book, American Baby. My life is full with love, creativity and reading. Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
This was written upon waking: Raise my eyes up and look towards the horizon. See the sunshine. Watch the light change. Marvel at the beauty and splendor of a new day, seen for the first time, in a new way. Awesome lives here, within me, in every breath rising up in my lungs, exhaling out into a new world, inhaling another day to be lived in a new way. Always changing. Always inviting me. Always opening the door and welcoming me inside. Thank you.