Love Letter to Life 05.14.2021 Bed Full of Love

Dear Life, I was diagnosed with an aggressive cancer last year and again on April 1st, 2021. My sister Arlene Lawrence made Moon Pillow 2020 to help me heal, and this year, Sun Pillow arrived to continue the miracles of healing. On April 1st, Erica Hess walked into my loft with big love and this huggable Bunny. Lisa Larsen showed up recently with a Queen’s Crown, embellished with all her creativity. I have a circle of amazing love encircling me and fabulous bed companions!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

My Bed Companions

Love Letter to Life 05.13.2021 Climbing Mount Everest

Dear Life, Yesterday, I met my Colorado team, Dr. Mike Tees and Laila from Colorado Blood Cancer Institute where I will undergo Stem Cell Replacement Therapy, a treatment that can be equated to climbing Mount Everest. I told them, “The ‘miracle’ of meeting my daughter and grandchildren along with the love of my family and friends gives me everything to live for.” My preparation for Stem Cell Therapy is the intense chemotherapy I am having now in Santa Fe through June. I move to Denver in July or August for hospitalization and out-patient care for 2-3 months. Hope lives in every step towards health. Love carries me.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

A Step Taken Next to the Santa Fe River, April 2021

Love Letter to Life 05.12.2021 Grandchildren and the Beach

Dear Life, I hope to walk the beach with my grandchildren later this summer. From now until then, I have a rigorous treatment schedule: today meeting oncologist from Denver to discuss Stem Cell Replacement Therapy; I go in-patient Christus Hospital Mon.-Wed for chemo; June 3rd Pet Scan that will determine next treatment in Denver. I go a step at a time, a day at a time, with love, grace, and hope. And I go with You. I am not alone.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Grandchildren on the Beach April 2021

Love Letter to Life 05.10.2021 Eternal Hope

Dear Life, Today, my granddaughter and niece graduate from UCONN. My grand-niece turned 3 on Saturday. My family has expanded with new members over the past year. All of this and more activates an eternal hope within me as I go to multiple medical appointments from 8:30-2:00pm today. I go with your love and Angels all around me. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

My Grand-niece, Violet Jade, three years old 05.08.2021

Love Letter to Life Life 05.09.2021 Daughter and Mother

Dear Life, My heart exploded and expanded in love as I put my arm around my beautiful daughter, Tracy, on 04.03.2021, when we reunited in-person after 52 years. We are so blessed to be in one another’s lives. Miracles happen. This is one of many miracles in my life today. Blessings and miracles to all mother’s, everywhere, every day, in every way.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Daughter and Mother 04.03.2021

Love Letter to Life 05.07.2021 Activating Hope

Dear Life, This is the cover of an inspirational book my sister made for loved ones. It inspires me everyday. Cancer feels overwhelming. Life turning upside down. However, there are messages and blessings, life happening in miraculous ways, like two doves showing up on my terrace to do a happy dance for me while a friend talked me through fears and tears. Yes, miracles are real and Spirit is working through all of you and doves.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

My sister, Arlene’s Inspirational Book

Love Letter to Life 05.06.2021 Dad Cheering Me On

Dear Life, I received a platelet infusion yesterday because my body needs other people’s blood for a boost. I felt an Angel next to me while I sat in the hospital. My father passed from this world in July 2014 after a brief battle with pancreatic cancer. He went through it with strength, grace, and love. Now he whispers to me, “You can do this”.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Photo of Dad circa 1950’s

Love Letter to Life 05.05.2021 Grief and Losing My Hair

Dear Life, The first strands of my new, thick, wavy hair fell out this morning. I feel like screaming, crying, running. One of the side effects of chemotherapy is hair loss. I went through this last year. And it begins again. There are many losses with cancer. A cancer therapist is helping me with grief and acceptance. I am powerless over cancer and my life is forever changed. I am grateful there is a Higher Power that I can lean into big time right now. I lean into love. I lean into your strength and support.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor