Love Letter to Life 02.01.2023 Infusion Day

Dear Life, I’ll be at NM Cancer Center 8:30-3:30 for third infusion treatment.
Pre-operation tests and bloodwork were done at hospital yesterday. I look forward to the next week, free of doctor or treatment appointments until surgery 02/09. Cancer care is a full-time job. Life with everything in it is happening as well. I am grateful for everyone who are is of my medical team, family, and friends. Thank you. You are light beams.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 001.29.2023 uterine Cancer

Dear Life, The biopsy results diagnosed endometrial uterine cancer. Laparoscopy hysterectomy is scheduled for 02/09; in at 11:30 and home at 5:00pm. 6-8 weeks of recovery. Pre-op tests are this week. More biopsies will be taken during surgery. Oncologists and I will determine additional treatments, if needed, based on biopsy results. Lymphoma treatments will continue. I am transforming like a caterpillar into a butterfly. Letting go.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

ove Letter to Life 01.27.2023 Chemical Immersion

Dear Life, I made this painting in April 2020. Chemotherapy treatments were behind me and ahead of me plus Stem Cell Replacement. 2022 was a year of Clinical Trial drugs. The cancer cells fought them all. Now I am in a new treatment mode taking oral meds daily and infusions weekly with more to come. How does it feel? This morning, my body is exhausted.
Thankfully, I have a Spirit lifted by love and that makes all things possible. Example: Spirit says to my body, “Go make breakfast now”. And my body goes to the kitchen. Miracle!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 01.25.2023 Rest and Breathe

Dear Life, Needed 48 hours of rest after biopsy. Heating pad, journal, books, blankets and pillows are my companionships. Today I have to go out for bloodwork in preparation for tomorrow’s infusion treatment. I’ll also pick up some groceries to make hot soup and stew. Santa Fe is in a Arctic air mass. Time to hibernate. Rest and restore my body and mind.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 01.20.2023

Love Letter to Life 01.22.2023 Let Go

Dear Life, I am writing in my journal every morning LET GO. Let go of any fear. Do not parachute into the future: False Evidence Appearing Real. Let go of apprehension about the unknown. Trust living in the moment where everything is manageable. Tomorrow I have a uterus biopsy at 11:00am in ABQ. I will get there on time and be okay. It’s part of the process. Today I will enjoy a game of Scrabble with a friend and go to a 12 step meeting. Focus, fun, sobriety, and community. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

My Vintage Scrabble Board

Love Letter to Life 01.20.2023 Upright and Moving

Dear Life, The sun felt so good yesterday on my face while I walked around the grounds of Museum Hill. It’s healing to move the medication around my body during and after treatments. The museum exhibits filled my soul. Your messages of support kept and keep me upright, my feet stepping forward. The miracle of this fills my heart with the power of love. I hope you feel my love.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

PRM walking around Museum Hill, Santa Fe, NM 01.29.2023