Love Letter to Life 06.17.2021 Leaving Hospital Soon

Dear Life, Fourth day of chemo almost complete. I am packing up and getting ready to go home. I had wonderful care from team here at Christus Hospital. Now I go home to rest and rejuvenate. Here’s a pic of my building recently taken at sunset. My loft is on the left sticking out. Glad to know my plants, paintings, and bed are waiting for me. Thank you all for your loving messages and prayers.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Loft Building at Sunset June 2021

Love Letter to Life 06.16.2021 Health First 100%

Dear Life, Due to the uptick in Covid and my compromised immune system, I canceled my trip to NYC/CT to visit family. The focus for next 6 months will be health and treatments. I am in Christus hospital now getting 4 days of chemotherapy. On July 6-8th I’ll be in Denver for the tests to determine if we can proceed with Stem Cell Replacement (have to be cancer free) and that is scheduled for July 21st – September 15th. As these Denver dates approach, I feel the gravity of my diagnosis, prognosis and treatment plan. The trip East and coordinating all the travel plans began to overwhelm me. A still small voice within said, “Wait. Focus on health.” My goal along with doctors is to “hit a home run and cure me”. We are aligned for the game for my life! Thank you all for your love and understanding.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor

Love Letter to Life 06.12.21 The Jitter Bugs

Dear Life, Yesterday the Denver Hospital confirmed Stem Cell Replacement Treatment schedule, July – Sep. A therapist told me: “Anxiety and excitement create the same chemical response in the body”. Reminds me of something I once told a musician who gets anxious before performances: “You have the jitter bugs, Divine Anxiety. Remember, you walk onto that stage and they all love you”.
Breathe and feel the love. Then walk with Grace a step at a time.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor

Love Letter to Life 06.11.2021 A Good Cry and A Watercolor

Dear Life, Sometimes I need to have a good, long cry that washes away the fears. Then my perspective changes. I see with my heart the important things: my body and mind’s resiliency, loving relationships with family and friends, a medical team I trust, the creative life I am living. Yesterday, tears cleared the way to creativity. I painted this watercolor.
Trust My Higher Power.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor

Love Letter to Life 06.10.2021 Needing A Lift

Dear Life, I wake with all the needs, wants, and tasks of a human being plus an altered reality. Energy and vitality are affected by the “battle” going on inside of my body and medical treatments. And the time it consumes. I have to say to myself,
“Breathe. Do not project into the future.”
Living with cancer is a challenging and transformative experience, lived a moment at a time. I get to be in this thing called LIFE, as it is, today. And I am not alone.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage

Love Letter to Life 06.09.2021 The Ribs of Health and Rest

Dear Life, Hours go into medical and life scheduling. It’s like a Rubik’s Cube, every part needing to line up, dependent on the other, for optimum outcomes. To help me have patience and faith, I visualize flourishing health and healing within my body and in my life.
I must remember: DIVINE ORDER AND TIMING. And have some fun every day!
I made this collage. Enjoy!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 06.08.2021 Fast Track to Denver

Dear Life, Blood work was good so green light for chemotherapy next week, then go to Denver for a bone marrow biopsy, battery of tests and meet Stem Cell Replacement team. I will be in a hospital for 3 three plus weeks then live in a medical hotel with a care giver for post-treatment. Also received a green light to visit my family in CT before the Denver hospitalization. Woke feeling anxious so I meditated and exercised. I need to stay in the moment while preparing for all this.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 06.07.2021 Miracle Magnet

Dear Life, What’s on your fridge? I have a variety of magnets and pics that uplift me; gifts from family and friends. Positive messaging is a mental and spiritual tool activating healing energy in the body. I feel the affects of it: love, support, focus, levity, laughter, joy, creativity. I need every prayer, good vibe, and loving thought that you send my way. Thank you. Today, blood work and oncologist appointment to continue treatment plans. Believe. Perceive. Receive. Miracles.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose