Dear Life, I am grateful to celebrate 40 years of sobriety today. A miracle. The disease of alcoholism/addiction is deadly and devastating, killing many suffering alcoholics/addicts and impacting the lives of untold numbers of families. My primary purpose for the past four decades is to stay sober and to be of service to those in need. Each day, I commit to this incredible journey of recovery. Thank you for traveling beside me.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, The Cancer Center triage nurse called to tell me a bone marrow biopsy in my pelvic is being scheduled. I felt the impact of her words hit my body. I walked over to the painting table and let the emotions out. Then I walked 3 plus miles on the path near the loft feeling the warm sun on my face. Keep breathing and living in the moment. Keep accessing the love and joy within me regardless of circumstances.
Living with cancer is a great teacher.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, It is International Women’s Day. I honor all the women who have helped me become the woman I am proud to be today. Thank you. All of you, near and far, living and beyond the veil, in the circle of my life, the pages of books, in paintings, politics, schools, in the kitchens and halls of change. Everywhere. We are Voices Beyond Measure.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, While walking each day, I see trees with buds and grasses emerging from the earth. I am connected to nature’s rhythm, changing with the seasons. There’s a quickened beat in my step, an enthusiastic vitality in my energy, a heightened awareness of the moment. Old cells are dying and are replaced with new healthy cells. I am a budding flower.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, What does saying YES to life look like? Buying the yellow tulips for me and flowers for someone else, walking 10,000 steps, hearing a friend’s concerns about Covid, sitting in solitude, painting, listening to rock and roll, laughing, crying, cleaning the house, planning a trip, listening to my daughter’s voice, loving, living in this day, this moment. Thank You Life.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I painted this watercolor after doctor visit. Primary Colors. All colors are made from three: blue, yellow, red. My life is lived from this primary purpose: Stay sober, help others, and take loving care of myself. Love Life and Live. I told the MRI Tech a story: his MRI machine makes sounds like contemporary electronic music. You have to wear ear plugs for that, too. We laughed and he’s thinking of changing careers: DJ!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, PET Scan points to Slow B Cell Lymphoma in my shoulders and hips however not conclusive. Blood tests are perfect, contradicting scans. Chemo eliminated this cancer and Aggressive Large Cell last year. Next week, another radiologist reads scan/MRI. In three weeks, blood tests and possibly a bone marrow biopsy. Slow B Cell Lymphoma is chronic but manageable. I am assured there will be no chemo but oral medication to manage this, if needed. Welcome to the world of the “cancer club”. I have a great team of doctors and a “fellowship” of loving support. This morning while writing in bed, my Spirit made me laugh. I affirmed, “I am strong, wise, brave, sober and courageous EVEN AFTER I get out of bed!” So, here I go into the day, a Spiritual Warrior.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Today at 2:00 pm is blood work, oncologist and results of scan/MRI and tests. Every time I go into the hospital, Cancer Center, and doctor’s office, I go with faith. No matter what the circumstances, no matter the results, I know I am loved and given everything I need. Thank you for walking with me on this life’s journey.
I feeling a bit on pins and needles!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Slept well and feel good. At 9:00am, I get an MRI. Later at 3:30pm, receiving first vaccine shot in Santa Fe. I’m affirming: I am a magnet for radiant health. I certainly get enough x-rays to be a glowing! Thanks for keeping me in your thoughts.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose Glow Bug
