Dear Life, I came across this wisdom on Facebook a couple of days ago. It rings true for me. How to hold regret tenderly:
“I wish I would have done that differently, and at the time, I couldn’t.”
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor Crayon Drawing 07.02.2023

Dear Life, Went with a couple of friends to Save the Horses Consignment store yesterday. This jacket and jeans fit like a glove so came home with me. I am a girl from the 60’s. Climbed over fences (more fun than buying a ticket) to hear great rock music.Went to Woodstock and heard every band. Loved Toad’s Place and CBGB’s to sweat with the crowds up close to The Ramones, Talking Heads and other greats, Michael Jackson and The Police at Madison Square Garden..Many extraordinary musical performances. Have to mention meeting Miles Davis at Carnegie Hall. And all the jazz cool cats. I love these memories and still wear the gear! I’m a Rock n’Roll Girl!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, My body is integrating the medical chemicals. I surrender to the tiredness that occurs due to this process. It’s exhausting inside work.While resting, I have phone visits. Friday, after a booster injection, I had a talk with Esther Kelbaugh, childhood friend. We discussed making art, drawing and using new materials. I heard myself say, “Just take out all the colors and make marks. Move the hand and see what happens.” Well, later that day, after a month hiatus from drawing, I followed my own advice and took out some colors and moved my hand. Thank you Esther and Arlene and all the people moving their hands with colors for inspiring me. Feels good.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor Crayons 06.30.2023

Dear Life, This morning I’ll go to Nexus, new cancer center where I’ve been treated since January, and get a booster injection. Neutrophils are low so we’re boosting them before anything gets critical. Treatments can lower blood and neutrophil counts. I’ll treat myself out to breakfast at Cafe Fina after injection. My favorite place to eat homestyle food at good prices. Basic Breakfast: two eggs with English Muffin and home fries $7.95. A carbohydrate booster!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Today I have doctor/infusion treatment 9-3. I am on Day 14 of oral meds. Tomorrow begins 14 day cycle of no meds or treatment. My bloodwork looks stable. I believe my cells are working in cooperation with the chemicals and my Life Force. I have a deep appreciation for the healing mysteries of the human body. And the spiritual journey I am on living with cancer. Thank you for your continued support by sending me positive, healing thoughts and energy. Your love is felt and helps heal me.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose a golden fish amongst many

Collage 06.2023

Dear Life, This is Tracy, an amazing person and my beautiful daughter. She was on the train to NYC, where she guided a blind runner in a Central Park race on Sunday. When I look at her, my heart swells in places I didn’t know existed. On 01.14.2020, I received a late night email connecting us after 50 years of separation. Thank you Ancestry for the DNA match. Thank you Universe for the miracle of timing. An oncologist had told me that day I had Lymphoma cancer. I had searched over 30 years for Tracy after releasing her for adoption in 1968. This smile is a major reason why I am still walking on this planet. We may not live in the same state but my Life Force has no boundaries. Sending lots of love across the miles with smiles to you and our big family.
Yours truly, Pamela Rose

Tracy on the Train 06.23.2023

Dear Life, I wore this dress for my first wedding at the United Nations Chapel NYC in 1987. I gave it to my dear friend Carole for her wedding in 1991 in CT. Last night, Carole’s daughter, Annie, wore it to the rehearsal party celebrating her wedding today in Long Island, NY. Beautiful dress. Beautiful women. Happy wedding days!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, A quick walk around the block reveals wonders. I live in a colorful neighborhood. Beautiful, quiet, clean, close to downtown Santa Fe. There are small apartments and old adobe homes with gardens. Neighbors walk their dogs and stop to talk. Children play in the park across the street. Gratitude and appreciation for my life and everything in it.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I tried for a couple of hours to load a photo for Love Letter today but image wouldn’t appear. Forgot I needed to “double-click” on pic icon for FB. Patience is the lesson recently. I received bloodwork results. The white blood booster injection worked. All my counts were better so yesterday I started oral medication again, 14-days of Revlimid. Met with oncologist’s assistant, had an uplifting talk and made appointments for next six weeks. Stomach is talking to me but otherwise, energy and outlook are good.
Double-click my heels for healing and health.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose