Love Letter to Life 08.01.2024 Summer Density

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, I returned to the studio yesterday. Sat with my work, took it down, signed each piece, and put into portfolio. Clearing the walls for new work. My body is acclimating to Santa Fe’s altitude and oral chemo meds. Next week are three days of medical appointments: Bloodwork, oncologist, infusion, and injection. Hence, I am here in NM as my mother’s body stubbornly says good-bye to this world in CT. Not an easy time. Breathe. I am experiencing the letting go process of a dying parent. In my 24 hours, along with the grief, I find moments of peace, beauty, joy, and the ongoing flow of love.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor on Yupo Paper

Love Letter to Life 07.30.2024 A Kindred Spirit

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, While traveling from Maine to CT, I stopped at a Rest Area crowded with cars and trucks. In front of the large center, Larry had a table and sign set up, “Pop-Up Book Sale”. I stood awhile watching travelers pass him by without a glance so walked up and said, “Hello, I’m Pamela and please tell me about your book”. A 30-minute heartfelt “journey” happened as we told personal stories with laughter and tears. I bought his book to share with my sister. When an “angel” smiles, notice and smile back.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 07.28.2024 Ships Crossing

| Pamela Markoya


Dear Life, Today I return to Santa Fe after two weeks in the East visiting family and friends. My mother is declining and family with help is caring for her. My visit included lots of storytelling, listening, and letting Mom know she is loved. Visit to Maine refreshed my spirit. As I head toward the west, I contemplate the cycles of life and death, the miracles and pains that we experience. Bittersweet.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 07.12.2024 Vacation Leave

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, I said to my campus studio, “I am going on vacation for two weeks. Will be back July 30th. Let imagination fill this space while I’m away. Thank you for being in my life.” I’ll be taking the red-eye from ABQ to JFK tonight. Arriving at 6:00am EST. My sister will scoop me up and take me to CT. You all know what I’ll be doing on Saturday morning. Hit the snooze button, please. Then visit Mom. The summer family vacation is about to begin!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Energy Portraits in SFCC Campus Studio 07.10.2024

Love Letter to Life 07.07.24 Heat

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, How does one stay “cool” amidst the “climate” changes in our personal landscapes, weather, local and global politics? I woke before dawn and lay still while practicing a breathing technique to calm the brain waves. Anxiety cannot exist while you are relaxed. Breathe in through your nose as deep as you can then take another quick breath in and release through your mouth from the belly. Repeat a few times. Clears the debris in the mind. Opens up the passage to the heart. Helps the flow of blood. Rejuvenates the body. Connects with love.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 057.05.2024 Duality

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, These images are graphite drawings on paper called Energy Portraits. They help me to see what is going on within me in different realms. Creative energy is evidence of my life force. that moves me in and through the dualities of living. Joy and despair. Peace and suffering. Solitude and upheaval. Happiness and sadness. Health and illness. Plenty and lack. Light and dark. I am grateful to be alive and know the still point, the chaos, the eye of the storm, the beauty of it all.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 06.30.2024 “Concern”

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, No cancer patient wants to hear from their oncologist, “This scan causes me concern”. The recent PetScan report revealed enlarged lymph nodes and lit up areas indicating new growth. Large B Cell Lymphoma is aggressive. We discussed staying on one more month of current treatment then CAR-T Cell Therapy. I have been opposed to this therapy after a failed Stem Cell Replacement in 2021. Now I need to be open-minded, meet a specialist and receive more information. The cancer journey takes another turn. Be present. Envision health.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Ink on Yupo Paper 7″ x 5″ 06.24.2024

Love Letter to Life 06.25.2024 Petscan Done

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, Up early today. Rolled out of bed into the shower, dressed in metal-free clothes, drove to XRAY Associates, had injection of chemicals, then rested in a dark room for an hour before “tubing”. Report will be available Thursday when I see oncologist to go over results. Came home to start the day over. Drank coffee and ate breakfast. Took Day Four oral chemo med. Breathe and release the jitters. Breathe and Be. Rest then go to studio.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 06.21.2024 Summer Solstice

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, I love summer, the long hours of light, the warmth, the balance of work and play. I love the proliferation of gardens abundant with flowers and vegetation. I love the sky of New Mexico changing hourly with clouds and monsoons. I love to visit family and friends in the CT and Maine, feel my feet in sand, jump into the ocean and lakes, eat lobster rolls, sit around open-pit fires roasting and eating marshmallows on sticks. Summer palette of Joy. Happy Solstice and Full Moon!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Ink on Yupo Paper 7″ x 5″ 06.18.2024