Dear Life, Waking each day in quiet, peace, and safety is healing. I am still at a friend’s house while my apartment is being “remediated”; construction inside and outside. Perhaps when all the work is complete and there is a new person living above me, the “something new and maybe better” will be right where I was living. Have had no luck finding another rental. I made this collage while listening to Jon Batiste’s beautiful song “Butterfly”.
I affirm on this Full Moon: I allow myself to feel healthy, well-being, love and happiness. I cooperate with my healing.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 01.23.2024

Dear Life, This is a photo of the still life that, Jared, my painting professor, set-up for our class. We had to paint a B&W tonal piece of it. It’s great being in school. A jumpstart for my creativity. I love meeting the students and seeing their work. It’s inspiring. Ate lunch with Rachel, a classmate, and found out she knows Grisha Krivchenia, the talented composer/pianist who worked with me on the Symphonic Poems Project. Perhaps a house concert is in the future. Small world. Wonderful day!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Class Still Life 01.23.2024

Dear Life, I miss my Shiba Inu’s, Funi and Mia. So many years of love, joy, fun, comfort… and high anxiety when either one of them would gleefully run out the door without a leash! They are known for being unstoppable runners when off-leash. Did not heed the command STOP! I learned so much with them while in “their care” for over 15 years. They appear often in my dreams. Maybe in the future, I will be able to live with a Shiba again and be bossed around with love!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Funi and Mia 2008

Dear Life, I’m watching a snow flurry pass though Santa Fe. Beautiful. Reminds me of LIGHTNESS OF BEING. The aspen trees. Limbs lined with soft white. Pause, breathe, appreciate the peace of this moment. The past week has been a flurry of activity: checking on my apartment that is undergoing mold remediation and construction outside, starting painting class, getting organized to set-up new studio on campus Monday, 1/29. All while resuming daily living.
Move like the light snow not the plow.
Smile and trust the Soul’s Journey.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Snow Flurry in Paint Tray

Dear Life, I begin painting workshops at Santa Fe Community College today. I’ve sharpened my pencils, chose a notebook and am excited to be amongst a new community of all ages. I had an inspiring meeting with my professor in November discussing ideas, practices, and studio space. I am embarking on a new experience of creativity and life.
Grateful to be physically able, mentally prepared, and wholly ready!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I find the first weeks of January to be reflective and identifying what has been released and what is shining into the New Year. Intentions begin to be set with plenty of space for new ideas. I am grateful to begin 2024 with clear PetScans, no lit up cancer cells. On January 16th, I start Painting workshop and an Advanced Project workshop developing ideas/images for Love Letters to Life. I am planning an Easter Trip to visit family in CT. I like living “90 days” at a time, a season at a time. Makes my life manageable. Winter is in progress, a deep and productive container for new ideas, baby steps, and self-love.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 01.03.2024

Dear Life, Temperature in Santa Fe is 14 degrees. High will be 28. My body temperature is lower than most folks so my mind is screaming, “GO SOUTH!” Yes, it’s a loud-mouth at times. However I start painting workshops next week at the community college and set up an on-site studio. So, Baby, layer up those clothes, keep the house toasty warm, heat up the car and be grateful. My Body is upright and ready to begin a new experience of community at the college and creativity in my work: painting, drawing and writing. The excitement warms me up!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Tuesday’s PetScan is clear. Relief. That is now 6 months with clear imaging. My blood counts have tanked due to Covid which I had after Thanksgiving and had to be hospitalized. I’ll receive a white blood booster injection Saturday to help my immune system. Today I go for an infusion 9-1pm. I do not have to take oral chemo meds for the time being. I am grateful for my resilient body, medical care and the loving support I receive from family and friends. And I continue to be in awe of my amazing Life Force. Thank you for being with me on this journey!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Acrylic Painting on Paper

Dear Life, Today bloodwork at 9:00 and Petscan 9:30. Thursday, appointment with Dr. Herbert, oncologist, at 3:30 to go over test and scan results. Friday, 9:00am infusion at the chemo suite. Please send your positive thoughts with me. I always hope for good results and accept what I hear. I feel happy and grateful to be alive. Affirming radiant health. Now out the door to get “Lit Up”!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 12.31.2023