Dear Life, I’m watching a snow flurry pass though Santa Fe. Beautiful. Reminds me of LIGHTNESS OF BEING. The aspen trees. Limbs lined with soft white. Pause, breathe, appreciate the peace of this moment. The past week has been a flurry of activity: checking on my apartment that is undergoing mold remediation and construction outside, starting painting class, getting organized to set-up new studio on campus Monday, 1/29. All while resuming daily living.
Move like the light snow not the plow.
Smile and trust the Soul’s Journey.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Snow Flurry in Paint Tray

Dear Life, I begin painting workshops at Santa Fe Community College today. I’ve sharpened my pencils, chose a notebook and am excited to be amongst a new community of all ages. I had an inspiring meeting with my professor in November discussing ideas, practices, and studio space. I am embarking on a new experience of creativity and life.
Grateful to be physically able, mentally prepared, and wholly ready!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I find the first weeks of January to be reflective and identifying what has been released and what is shining into the New Year. Intentions begin to be set with plenty of space for new ideas. I am grateful to begin 2024 with clear PetScans, no lit up cancer cells. On January 16th, I start Painting workshop and an Advanced Project workshop developing ideas/images for Love Letters to Life. I am planning an Easter Trip to visit family in CT. I like living “90 days” at a time, a season at a time. Makes my life manageable. Winter is in progress, a deep and productive container for new ideas, baby steps, and self-love.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 01.03.2024

Dear Life, Temperature in Santa Fe is 14 degrees. High will be 28. My body temperature is lower than most folks so my mind is screaming, “GO SOUTH!” Yes, it’s a loud-mouth at times. However I start painting workshops next week at the community college and set up an on-site studio. So, Baby, layer up those clothes, keep the house toasty warm, heat up the car and be grateful. My Body is upright and ready to begin a new experience of community at the college and creativity in my work: painting, drawing and writing. The excitement warms me up!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Tuesday’s PetScan is clear. Relief. That is now 6 months with clear imaging. My blood counts have tanked due to Covid which I had after Thanksgiving and had to be hospitalized. I’ll receive a white blood booster injection Saturday to help my immune system. Today I go for an infusion 9-1pm. I do not have to take oral chemo meds for the time being. I am grateful for my resilient body, medical care and the loving support I receive from family and friends. And I continue to be in awe of my amazing Life Force. Thank you for being with me on this journey!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Acrylic Painting on Paper

Dear Life, Today bloodwork at 9:00 and Petscan 9:30. Thursday, appointment with Dr. Herbert, oncologist, at 3:30 to go over test and scan results. Friday, 9:00am infusion at the chemo suite. Please send your positive thoughts with me. I always hope for good results and accept what I hear. I feel happy and grateful to be alive. Affirming radiant health. Now out the door to get “Lit Up”!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 12.31.2023

Dear Life, I celebrate this day with reflection of the past year 2023 and my intentions for 2024. This evening, I will go to a recovery meeting 6-7pm, with appreciation that this community has helped me sustain my sobriety since 1981. I hope I helped a few souls along the way. Then a couple of friends will join me at my home for dinner. I feel gratitude, peace, joy, and love in my heart. Thank you, family and friends, for your support and care, prayers and gifts given to me freely this past year. I send you my love beyond measure.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, While in the hospital, I wore a purple wrist band for 6 days that had only three letters on it: DNR, Do Not Resuscitate. When you can’t breathe, have no strength, and need assistance to walk, those “letters” have real meaning. It was unsettling but it’s in my living will. I’m grateful the powerful infusions of anti-viral drugs did the job of clearing my lungs and eliminating Covid. I made this collage. Hoping not to have any more “bracelets” from the hospital in my future. I am grateful to be upright and feeling my powerful Life Force. Resilient and Resurrecting!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 12.27.2023

Dear Life, This season, I’ve quietly thought about the past holidays: childhood excitement and the belief in Santa Claus, decorating the tree and lighting up the house, going on drives to see decorations, the Radio City Rockettes Christmas Spectacular, storefronts and Rockefeller Center tree in NYC, making “homemade” gifts, baking cookies and cooking special meals, gathering with family and friends, going to “midnight mass” with my Catholic father and siblings, coming to Santa Fe in 1989 and experiencing the magic of Christmas here with farolitos and luminaries all along Canyon Road, the plaza downtown and adobe homes. Old traditions and new. Love and light.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose