Dear Life, While the sold-out theaters captivate audiences with Oppenheimer and Barbie, and more indictments roll out of Washington DC, I plead “Immunity”. Focus and attention are at home documenting 5 years of love letters. That’s a personal story of many life colors still being written. I am not on strike. It’s a blockbuster!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Collage 08.03.2023
Dear Life, My home studio was rearranged. We opened up the space and made a clear pathway through it. Feels good. I am also rearranging my neural pathways: 10,000 repetitions of a thought makes a new neural pathway. This requires discipline, awareness and a desire to thrive. A friend who interviewed me for a podcast called me a “Cancer Thriver”. This rang true within me. Yes, I want to thrive each day no matter the symptoms, side effects, PetScan results, treatments, etc. If my body needs to stay home, I can thrive in my studio. If I need to stay in bed, I can write and read and sleep. I am a great dreamer. When I am upright and out in the world, I appreciate it. I thrive where I am. Thank you, Life.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Friday, after getting a blood booster injection, I went to a Yard Sale in Santa Fe. Richard Kurtz was selling some of his fabricated metal letter paintings and I bought two: X and O. I’ve wanted these for over 10 years. Now they are in my studio injecting me with their energy of “The Good Fight for Life”. Mexican Fighters are painted on all the surfaces. That evening, I made dinner for Richard and Jennifer Esperanza, his wife and business partner. They told me stories of their adventures traveling the world. May there be many more adventures of life and love for all of us!
Hugs and Kisses, Pamela Rose
Thank you Jennifer Esperanza for the photo: PRM & Richard Kurtz
Dear Life, A friend sent me this photo of me from 1998. I have a box filled with photos and am inspired to take a look. Today, I see Dr Herbert at 9:am then have an infusion treatment until 4:00pm. Bringing my computer to work on compiling the Love Letters into a document in order to edit for publication. Let’s hope we can find a publisher so the Love Letters to Life can inspire those who are touched by cancer or addiction. My younger me is here today because of all the support I’ve received from others and their inspirational stories of recovery. Please send me your positive stories and vibes. I need them. Thanks.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
PRM 1998
Dear Life, Today I have bloodwork; tomorrow meet with Dr Herbert and have infusion treatment 9-3pm. I am on day 13 of 14-day oral med regime. Add the infusion to that and I am a chemical cocktail! Fortunately, I am upright, most of the time. Changing the “Feng Shui” of the studio has helped me enjoy working for longer periods of time. That’s chemical: creative chemistry. I am grateful to be a conduit of life and creativity.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Collage 07.21.2023
Dear Life, Today’s prompt from The Isolation Journals: “How can your presence enhance the growth of your community?” I am a member of 12 step recovery groups for over 42 years where I share my strength, hope, and experience. Service is the cornerstone of my sobriety. I also am a person living with cancer. I began writing Love Letters to Life in 2018 after an 11-day hospital stay and consequently many more stays. I needed to express my gratitude for life. I do my best to share hope with others who are touched by cancer including families, friends, and the medical community. The Love Letters and flowers are a great way of saying, “Thank you for all you do.”.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I had a blast with Sherman recording this podcast yesterday. Please take a quick listen. Click on the live link below. It’s full of grace, laughs, tears, and miracles!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, My home studio will be streamlined today. Art tables and and bookshelves will be reconfigured. There’s a north window. I sorted through books and a friend has kindly offered to house some of them in his library making room for art supplies on shelves. Six grocery bags filled with magazines will to go to the main library.. I’ve used them for collage. I’ll collage with images I find along the way of my life. This all feels good. Making ready for new ideas and work. And instead of moving a whole house, move a few pieces of furniture. Transcendent Wisdom!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Collage 07.18.2023
Dear Life, I want to live in a place with enough space for what I own to be under one big beautiful roof. My current place is wonderful but small so I have a storage space that houses 45 years of my artwork. Yes there are the Christmas bins and a couple pieces of furniture. But the artwork is what primarily fills the racks and bins and leans up against the walls. When I think about letting go of the “art” it feels like I’m giving up on life. And that’s unbearable. The furniture is replaceable. But the art? I make art. Ah, the reality of an artist.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Storage Space 2023
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