Dear Life, Today I have doctor/infusion treatment 9-3. I am on Day 14 of oral meds. Tomorrow begins 14 day cycle of no meds or treatment. My bloodwork looks stable. I believe my cells are working in cooperation with the chemicals and my Life Force. I have a deep appreciation for the healing mysteries of the human body. And the spiritual journey I am on living with cancer. Thank you for your continued support by sending me positive, healing thoughts and energy. Your love is felt and helps heal me.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose a golden fish amongst many

Collage 06.2023

Dear Life, This is Tracy, an amazing person and my beautiful daughter. She was on the train to NYC, where she guided a blind runner in a Central Park race on Sunday. When I look at her, my heart swells in places I didn’t know existed. On 01.14.2020, I received a late night email connecting us after 50 years of separation. Thank you Ancestry for the DNA match. Thank you Universe for the miracle of timing. An oncologist had told me that day I had Lymphoma cancer. I had searched over 30 years for Tracy after releasing her for adoption in 1968. This smile is a major reason why I am still walking on this planet. We may not live in the same state but my Life Force has no boundaries. Sending lots of love across the miles with smiles to you and our big family.
Yours truly, Pamela Rose

Tracy on the Train 06.23.2023

Dear Life, I wore this dress for my first wedding at the United Nations Chapel NYC in 1987. I gave it to my dear friend Carole for her wedding in 1991 in CT. Last night, Carole’s daughter, Annie, wore it to the rehearsal party celebrating her wedding today in Long Island, NY. Beautiful dress. Beautiful women. Happy wedding days!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, A quick walk around the block reveals wonders. I live in a colorful neighborhood. Beautiful, quiet, clean, close to downtown Santa Fe. There are small apartments and old adobe homes with gardens. Neighbors walk their dogs and stop to talk. Children play in the park across the street. Gratitude and appreciation for my life and everything in it.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I tried for a couple of hours to load a photo for Love Letter today but image wouldn’t appear. Forgot I needed to “double-click” on pic icon for FB. Patience is the lesson recently. I received bloodwork results. The white blood booster injection worked. All my counts were better so yesterday I started oral medication again, 14-days of Revlimid. Met with oncologist’s assistant, had an uplifting talk and made appointments for next six weeks. Stomach is talking to me but otherwise, energy and outlook are good.
Double-click my heels for healing and health.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, As temperatures warm and fears of Covid cool, people have been out and about in the world with ease. I have been joining them, in small numbers and recently in a large group. Coming out of “quarantine” is strange. My brain and body go in two directions: Brain is all excited to engage while my body still retracts with reasonable boundaries to be safe. The new “safety zone” is being established in a new time: Post-Pandemic. I may sound late to the party but it’s due to a compromised immune system from cancer treatment. I’m finding my way into gathering places. Hello World.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Vision Board 2023

N O W … rest and dream… after getting mural paints out of storage… more news to come.

Dear Life, The oncologist told me my brain is likely having “neurological disturbances” due to the years of chemical cancer treatments The brain is affected and tries to make sense of it all. When it can’t, depressive thoughts arise. There are new “chemical” methods to help the brain. My body retracted as it heard “more chemicals”. I set out on another course of action to help my brain: Invite “awe” into my life through “Wonder Walks”. The NYT recently published a study’s results. There is positive evidence that “awe” and physical movement changes the brain’s pathways and chemical body. So I am walking my brain daily with eyes of wonder. I am awe-inspired and feeling better. Movement is life.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, What’s on my mind? Cuties in Salads. Health and Happiness. A Day At A Time.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

My lunch with flowers on my porch 06.06.2023