Dear Life, It’s my birth month. I’m feeling Lucky!

Yours Truly Pamela Rose

Dear Life, While attending the School of Visual Arts in 1982, I did a series of self-portraits, this one being a favorite. Today, in Suleika Jouad’s The Isolation Journals, a prompt was given: “Without thinking, draw a self-portrait”. I am still in bed so pulled up this image but will make a drawing after I roll into the day and studio. This painting reminds me of who I am: able to live each day with inner strength, love, vulnerability, creativity, and guidance… with a little (lot of) help from my friends. Thank you to all the “communities” in my life.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Self-Portrait Acrylic Painting 1982

Dear Life, Snow swirled in the air for a couple of hours yesterday leaving a few inches of rich dense cover that melted into the ground by 3:00pm. Quenching the high-desert earth. We love when that happens. I stayed in all day, spring cleaned and worked in the studio. Felt like the weather. Changeable. Unexpectedly, I was asked to speak at a 3:30 ZOOM meeting. Uplifted me. I love when life does this… sends me swirling on a trajectory I cannot see but benefits me. Received feedback that it helped others too. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 04.25.2023

Dear Life, Spring weather is emotional. High winds. Rain. Sleet. Turbulence with warm air colliding with cold. Clouds. Twisters. Dust devils. Radiant sunshine. The earth waking and erupting. Rivers overflowing. Trees and foliage blooming. Grasses and plants breaking through the ground. Changeable. I woke early considering the impact of spring on my inner landscape. Besides allergies, (all that pollen being tossed around) I found curiosity about life, this day, the near future. How are the winds of spring affecting me? New painting.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Acrylic Painting 04.27.2023

Dear Life, I was happy to hear the optometrist say “You have very healthy eyes. And tell your oncologist, there’s no lymphoma cells.” Cancer-free eyes. Yay! I need to put a warm compress on my eyes to open up the oil glands that line my eyelashes. The chemicals of treatment have closed them leaving my eyes extremely dry, vision sometimes blurry. Did you know we have oil glands for our eyes? I didn’t. Living in the dry climate of Santa Fe also drys the tear ducts. So putting eyedrops in too. Keeping these sparkly, beautiful, big vision eyes healthy!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Recently my journaling has revealed many questions. What is my mind telling me? What are my heart’s desires? With life as it is? A completely different question when taken from the future and grounded in the present. Where do I want to be? Where does my body feel best? What engages me with enthusiasm? What possibilities do I see, can I consider? Not every possibility is worth pursuing. What relationships are important? Where do I want to live and die? LIVING INTO THE ANSWERS TODAY.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Cold-Wax Oil Painting 4.2023

Dear Life, I feel deep gratitude that my drinking and drugging days are decades behind me. Each day upon waking, I acknowledge a Higher Power that provides the strength and grace I need to live another day. I show up open-hearted and willing to be honest, responsible, and available to help others. I ask for guidance while putting my feet into action. I listen and look for the signposts. No matter where this takes me, I am given everything I need. Cancer has taught me this as well. Community is everywhere. We are not alone. I love this Spiritual Journey.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Acrylic Painting 04.24.2023

Dear Life, This morning I walked through my home with “curious eyes”. My sister is visiting in May and I wondered how her eyes will see my home and studio. Arlene is painting in her “dining room studio”. With her instruction, I painted this cold-wax oil painting. I’m also inspired by SULEIKA JAOUAD’s writing and watercolors as she traverses the landscape of cancer, treatments, and life, a ground I am all too familiar with. Today I will sit at my studio table and open into the creative runway. Thank you Arlene and Suleika.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Studio Set-up and Cold-Wax Oil Paintings

Dear Life, Yesterday during a two hour layover in Dallas, I met Woody and Sharon from Reno. We told our “reunited stories”. Theirs was getting married 44 years after they were high school sweethearts. Life took them in different directions after HS but Woody promised “I”ll wait for you”. He did and Sharon married him after her first husband and father to her 4 children died. Sharon and Woody are happily married for 14 years. I told them my “Miracle” story of reuniting with Tracy the day I was diagnosed with Lymphoma. We were separated for 50 years. Photos were shared, tears glistened in our eyes, and our hearts connected in the Dallas Airport. I love how this happens, LIFE!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

PRM and Tracy at Family S’Mores Party