Dear Life, I made this painting in April 2020. Chemotherapy treatments were behind me and ahead of me plus Stem Cell Replacement. 2022 was a year of Clinical Trial drugs. The cancer cells fought them all. Now I am in a new treatment mode taking oral meds daily and infusions weekly with more to come. How does it feel? This morning, my body is exhausted.
Thankfully, I have a Spirit lifted by love and that makes all things possible. Example: Spirit says to my body, “Go make breakfast now”. And my body goes to the kitchen. Miracle!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Full day ahead at the chemo suite. Please send your healing vibes. I am grateful.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Needed 48 hours of rest after biopsy. Heating pad, journal, books, blankets and pillows are my companionships. Today I have to go out for bloodwork in preparation for tomorrow’s infusion treatment. I’ll also pick up some groceries to make hot soup and stew. Santa Fe is in a Arctic air mass. Time to hibernate. Rest and restore my body and mind.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 01.20.2023

Dear Life, Heading to oncologist in ABQ. It’s a windy, cold day. You are with me.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I am writing in my journal every morning LET GO. Let go of any fear. Do not parachute into the future: False Evidence Appearing Real. Let go of apprehension about the unknown. Trust living in the moment where everything is manageable. Tomorrow I have a uterus biopsy at 11:00am in ABQ. I will get there on time and be okay. It’s part of the process. Today I will enjoy a game of Scrabble with a friend and go to a 12 step meeting. Focus, fun, sobriety, and community. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

My Vintage Scrabble Board

Dear Life, The sun felt so good yesterday on my face while I walked around the grounds of Museum Hill. It’s healing to move the medication around my body during and after treatments. The museum exhibits filled my soul. Your messages of support kept and keep me upright, my feet stepping forward. The miracle of this fills my heart with the power of love. I hope you feel my love.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

PRM walking around Museum Hill, Santa Fe, NM 01.29.2023

Dear Life, My treatment day began at 8:15am and ended at 4:15. I left center as nurses and maintenance cleaned. I received a knockout 6 hour infusion of steroid, benedryl, tylenol and GAZYVA. The sonogram report recommended a uterus biopsy; appointment made for Monday in ABQ with a gynecology oncologist. New frontier, not ABQ, but the cancer possibly in my uterus. My body is recovering. I plan to go to Museum Hill and see the CLAY Exhibit and eat lunch at restaurant. My Mind needs to focus on my Spirit that is lifted by your positive vibes. I read all your messages yesterday and saw the friends thinking of me.
It matters. It really does. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Pic from 2020 when the chemo treatment rodeo started.

Dear Friends, Please keep me in your positive vibes. New treatment begins today big time. I appreciate your love.

Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Today FED-EX will deliver new oral immunotherapy medication. I have to be home to sign for it. Then I need to get bloodwork. Tomorrow begins new treatment, an infusion which takes all day, plus I start the oral meds for 21 days. Cancer-care can seem all-consuming. The next month is a steep journey. I must remember my life is much more. Breathe.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 02.2022