#anxiety

Love Letter to Life 04.14.2025 Blood Test

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, I have blood tests and doctor visit this morning. We continue to track the “health” of my body on a monthly basis. What are the red and white cell counts, platelets, ANC, and overall levels of all my blood/body functions. Whenever tests are on the schedule, there’s a knot in my stomach. Most cancer patients understand this anxiety. No matter how I physically feel, there is the question about what is happening inside of me. I remember to breathe, be in the moment and release the tension.
Acceptance is the key to inner freedom.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor and Ink on Yupo Paper 04.10.2025

Love Letter to Life 12.10.2024 Between the Lines

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, I feel the Cancer Trifecta: ANXIETY prior to a PetScan, HOPE to see improved images, and FAITH to accept whatever shows up. Tomorrow at 8:30am, I will have my final scan in 2024, bloodwork at 2:30pm and appointment with oncologist to discuss results. Please think of me and send positive vibes.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

PRM between Richard Hogan painting 11/2024

Love Letter to Life 12.06.2024 Body Alarm

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, I have a familiar rash on my face, small red bumps near my eyes, nose and cheeks. In 2018, this was the first indication that something was off in my body. The bumps were biopsied: no cancer. The dermatologist diagnosed, air-borne allergies. I hope this is the reason now. I have a PetScan on Wednesday and anyone who has cancer knows the anxiety of scans, blood tests, reports, and treatment. Any change in the body causes my alarm system to go off. I am breathing deep through the anxiety and into the divine energy of the moment. Today, go to campus studio, paint and be with community. Movement is Life.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Acrylic Paint in Sketchbook