Love Letter to Life 01.23.2025 The “Zone”

Dear Life, Yesterday I found myself in the “zone” of writing, that blissful space in the moment, a deeper voice speaking, words flowing and a surprise when you go back to read what’s on the page. Thank you to Ro, my new teacher for Creative Expressions class. Ro emailed “homework” and one of the assignments was completing a poem, I AM FROM..” I am from books and paints and paper and nature and stories.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Here is the entire piece if you care to read:

My “I AM FROM” poem from a template of prompts:

I am from books and paints and paper and nature and stories.

I am from light and dark, chaos and order, ugliness and beauty of life.

I am from the fresh flowers picked from the garden and put into water glasses and empty jars.

I am from tall grasses, oak and Maplewood trees whose long limbs I remember as if they were my own.

I’m from mended shards of growing up with topsy turvy memories.

From grandfather upending tables in drunken disarray and mothers, all sisters, gathering their children to play another game of distraction and turning the music up louder to break the deafening sound of fear.

I am from swimming with large snapping turtles in muddy water and then flying with a life-grip around a knotted rope over that river behind our dead-end house while being Tarzan and Jane.

I am from crooked wooden steps nailed onto the trunk of trees rising high above the ground in the woods where our forts of sanctuary and secrets were built.

I am from picking ripe cherries from my grandmother’s tree, biting the fruit and rubbing the sweet burgundy juice on my lips like Cleopatra.

I am from being spun in the air at the ends of my father’s strong hands while his feet kept the quick beat of the polka.

I am from Sunday morning church services with strong incense and blood streaming from Jesus’ crown of thorns, and nailed hands and feet while I bent my innocent child head and stuck out my tongue with holy grace to receive His body alive in a white host.

I am from staring upward from the pew to see painted ceilings of angels and saints while hearing tales of devils hovering nearby.

I am from all this and the imagination to becoming a muralist, an artist, and a writer.

I am from the radio playing be-bop to the Beatles, Motown to musicals.

I am from singing Ring Around the Rosie and thinking the song was made for my Grandmother and my Mother because both were named Rosie.

I am from a long line of men named Louis, so many, that my mother called my father Mark because our last name is Markoya and his first name was Louis.

I am from an apartment of few rooms stacked three-floors high with aunts, uncles, cousins and grandparents crowded on top, below and next door.

I am from the “poor” side of the richest county in America, Fairfield, CT, but had no clue until I was 10 years old and had to go to school up the hill where the “other half” lived.

I am from picnics and holiday feasts of Hungarian and American food.

I am from blue collars working three jobs to keep the roof overhead and food on the table and tiredness disguised with laughter and anger and fear.

I am from “we want a better life for you” and we did have better lives.

I am from tears of anguish and toil, hearts of love and giving, celebrations of life and death.

Pamela Markoya (c) January 22, 2025

Graphit Drawing on Paper 01.14.2025

Love Letter to Life 12.12.2024 Miracle of My Body

Dear Life, A good report: PetScan showed minimal growth of lymphoma. One “lit-up” lesion and minuscule activity. I will continue non-evasive treatment for three months; no chemo or infusions. With the uptick of Covid and flus/colds, I need to protect my immune system by masking and avoiding large gatherings. It will be a quiet holiday season. I am grateful my body is rejuvenating and strengthening. Thank you friends for the support.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 11.08.2024 Daily Practices

Dear Life, Daily practices help me move forward especially during challenging times: prayer and meditation, reading, writing and painting, being of service to others, washing the dishes, making the bed, watering and talking to the indoor plants (they are great listeners), house cleaning, organizing art supplies, walking and seeing the beauty around me, being present, smiling at the cashier, giving a hug to someone. Feel the light of faith within and be in the spirit of hope. Practice gratitude. I love you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Tempera on Watercolor Paper 11.06.2024

Love Letter to Life 11.04.2024 Dixon Re-Do

Dear Life, I had such a good time at the Dixon Studio Tour on Saturday, I returned on Sunday with Pam Platt, long-term artist friend. We went to Rift Gallery and artist studios, ate lunch on the porch of the Dixon Co-op, and watched the weather change. I love northern New Mexico, the land, its people, the cultures, the art communities. I love my body feeling “completely me” while on a hiatus from cancer treatments. Snowfall this morning. All good.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 10.26.2024 Mother and Daughter

Dear Life, Tracy and I had a wonderful road trip to Jemez Mineral Springs and Los Alamos on Thursday. The weather was perfect and the soaking pools healing. We traveled a loop of breathtaking scenic areas. Last night we ate an early dinner then walked around the plaza. I walked out of Overland Sheepskin Company wearing a beautiful Alpaca reversible coat and Tracy with warm colorful Alpaca socks. Thank you, Rosie, for the gifts! You will be thought of each time your daughter and grand-daughter wear their Alpaca. Laughter lifted into the star-filled night as we scrubbed the seats of my car after an ice cream spill. A very special visit filled with love.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

PRM & TP 10.24.2024 Jemez Mineral Springs

Love Letter to Life 10.22.2024 Northern New Mexico

Dear Life, The excitement and activity of Tracy’s visit overwhelmed my body. Yesterday, I needed many hours of sleep. Woke feeling refreshed. I’ll go to the studio this morning while Tracy works remotely. This afternoon we will drive the High Road to visit friends in Nambe and Truchas. The pleasure of having dear ones meet fills my heart with joy. This time of year is beautiful with the clear light and changing colors of autumn. I am grateful for the new experiences of life and love each moment.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor on Paper