Dear Life, I am having new experiences with people, places and things. I acknowledge that each day is a new, never lived before or to be lived again. I affirm being present and entering into the day with an open mind and heart, curious eyes and ears, and willing hands and feet to go where inspiration and intuition lead. This way of living allows my spirit to guide me. That puts a smile in and on me. Here I go into the “adventure” with gratitude. Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, What tangles your life? What runs you around the block a few times? What uplifts or brings you down? What is happening here? I love that my drawings ask me questions and give momentary imprints of my energy. I felt tangled up during a crowded student lunch. Too many conversations going on at the same time. The drawing reflected it. I know I enjoy quieter spaces with meaningful conversations that uplift, enjoy laughter, connect with the heart. Drawn and Noted. Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Woke to winter waving through the bedroom window. Snow lines the limbs of trees, adobe walls, earth blanketed, mountains obscured by dense clouds. 20 degrees. I wake slowly. My senses begin a tick-off list: hear sounds of heat coming from forced-water baseboards, my eyes detect the darkness or light, my skin feels the warmth of soft bedding. Murmuring thoughts signal the body to move upright and I find my way into the kitchen to push the coffee pot button. Thank you Life for lifting me into this new day and all it holds. Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Happy to be held by a hand and heart of beautiful flowers while visiting with Esther in AZ. We laughed and walked and talked and “went wild” the way good friends hold one another with love. I’m excited that she will be setting up an “art table” to begin a Vision Board collage project. That’s what I’ll be doing today in my Creative Expressions class. Here we go into 2025 with love, creativity, imagination, and community! Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, After 2024, a childhood friend, Esther Kelbaugh, and I decided to meet up in Phoenix and have a Girls Go Wild weekend. This included a Sting concert, but unfortunately, he is under the weather (please send him healing vides, friends) so concert is postponed until June. I am still getting on a plane today and the girls will celebrate life. Each day is a gift and friends are a blessing. Another plus: leaving an arctic 16 degrees for a sunny 66. Love warms the day! Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Yesterday I found myself in the “zone” of writing, that blissful space in the moment, a deeper voice speaking, words flowing and a surprise when you go back to read what’s on the page. Thank you to Ro, my new teacher for Creative Expressions class. Ro emailed “homework” and one of the assignments was completing a poem, I AM FROM..” I am from books and paints and paper and nature and stories. Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Here is the entire piece if you care to read:
My “I AM FROM” poem from a template of prompts:
I am from books and paints and paper and nature and stories.
I am from light and dark, chaos and order, ugliness and beauty of life.
I am from the fresh flowers picked from the garden and put into water glasses and empty jars.
I am from tall grasses, oak and Maplewood trees whose long limbs I remember as if they were my own.
I’m from mended shards of growing up with topsy turvy memories.
From grandfather upending tables in drunken disarray and mothers, all sisters, gathering their children to play another game of distraction and turning the music up louder to break the deafening sound of fear.
I am from swimming with large snapping turtles in muddy water and then flying with a life-grip around a knotted rope over that river behind our dead-end house while being Tarzan and Jane.
I am from crooked wooden steps nailed onto the trunk of trees rising high above the ground in the woods where our forts of sanctuary and secrets were built.
I am from picking ripe cherries from my grandmother’s tree, biting the fruit and rubbing the sweet burgundy juice on my lips like Cleopatra.
I am from being spun in the air at the ends of my father’s strong hands while his feet kept the quick beat of the polka.
I am from Sunday morning church services with strong incense and blood streaming from Jesus’ crown of thorns, and nailed hands and feet while I bent my innocent child head and stuck out my tongue with holy grace to receive His body alive in a white host.
I am from staring upward from the pew to see painted ceilings of angels and saints while hearing tales of devils hovering nearby.
I am from all this and the imagination to becoming a muralist, an artist, and a writer.
I am from the radio playing be-bop to the Beatles, Motown to musicals.
I am from singing Ring Around the Rosie and thinking the song was made for my Grandmother and my Mother because both were named Rosie.
I am from a long line of men named Louis, so many, that my mother called my father Mark because our last name is Markoya and his first name was Louis.
I am from an apartment of few rooms stacked three-floors high with aunts, uncles, cousins and grandparents crowded on top, below and next door.
I am from the “poor” side of the richest county in America, Fairfield, CT, but had no clue until I was 10 years old and had to go to school up the hill where the “other half” lived.
I am from picnics and holiday feasts of Hungarian and American food.
I am from blue collars working three jobs to keep the roof overhead and food on the table and tiredness disguised with laughter and anger and fear.
I am from “we want a better life for you” and we did have better lives.
I am from tears of anguish and toil, hearts of love and giving, celebrations of life and death.
Dear Life, “Out of a mountain of despair, a stone of hope.” These words from Martin Luther King Jr’s 1963 speech in Washington DC. More questions than answers rise out of the state of my heart on this day. There is much to do in order to turn darkness to light, despair to hope. Be the peace. Take the high road. Lean into love and be an agent of change. Please join me on this march for freedom. Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, All those mark-makings interest me. I see the graphite drawings and paintings as geological imprints and maps of a human being that happens to be me. Keeps my interest in returning to the studio in order to get a glimpse of what’s up. Is that odd? At least I can say, it keeps me out of trouble. Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Thank you for all the positive vibes. My body responds with health and my heart with love. We are connected in Spirit while we travel this journey called Life. Yours Truly, Pamela Rose