Dear Life, PetScan report on first reading looks good. I will go over it on Tuesday with oncologist. Relief comes with the feeling of exhaustion due to days of anticipation. Also, the scan requires an injection of chemicals that takes my body 48 plus hours to process. Feeling more like myself today. I am grateful for my resilient body and all of your prayers.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Acrylic Ink on Mineral Paper 04.26.2026
Dear Life, I have a case of nervousness. Six month PetScan is Wednesday at 7:00am. Ramping up to scans/tests then waiting for results is always bumpy. Challenge is to stay present and not to project. I feel healthy as a result of taking good care of my body, mind, and spirit. However, every cancer patient knows this dance: the Jitterbug. I put my hand in God’s and paint while bouncing around.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Acrylic Ink on Mineral Paper 04.22.2026
Dear Life, Painting helps me to identify root causes of feelings. My Spirit guides me through the journey of grief: loss of loved ones, life changes, and losses due to disease, cancer. Grief can come unannounced and take a seat at the table. It sits there quietly until I notice its shadow. Sorrow. Sadness. Pain. Anxiety. Fear.
Grief whispers, “Come sit with me. Do not be afraid. I am a part of you. I am seeking comfort and companionship. Do not abandon me. Be with me. Together we can heal.”
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Acrylic Ink on Yupo Paper 03.19.2026
Dear Life, It is a powerful time, seasonally, spiritually, politically, globally. The winds of spring are stirring up my creative juices and need to center in the moment. On Easter morning, I painted this watercolor. There is new growth, buds blooming, people embracing their loved ones, traditions, and praying for peace in the face of wars with far-reaching affects. May we give one another much needed moments of connectedness.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Watercolor on Paper 04.05.2026
Dear Life, Wherever you may be, whoever you may be with, whatever you may be doing, however you may be feeling, please live with heart. My heart to yours on this new day.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Acrylic Ink on Paper 03.18.2026
Dear Life, I am currently “healthy” and living an active life. There are still doctor appointments, blood tests, PetScans and all the general medical routine health checks. I need to tell each new medical professional my history: Stage 4 Diffuse Large B-cell Lymphoma since 2020. Tomorrow I meet a new doctor and hand them a 6-page, single spaced, document of all the treatments and medicines I have had since diagnosis. Right now, I only take allergy two meds. Do I dare say, “No Evidence of Disease”. A miracle.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Acrylic Ink on Yupo Paper
Dear Life, The signs of Spring are appearing in my watercolors. I am painting a series of 30 Watercolor and Sumi Ink pieces. Nature coming into the work from the outside-in. A balance to my Inside-Out project. Blood and guts need nature’s healing!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
4 Watercolor and Sumi Ink Paintings
Dear Life, Grasses, flowers, and leafing trees are emerging. Spring energy is pulsing everywhere. I am waking earlier. My life, by choice, is lived in seasonal increments. Twelve weeks and a day at a time, is manageable. I review the previous season, reflect on lessons and goals, and decide how to move forward with my intentions for the upcoming season. I focus on the moment. I love living this way.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Acrylic Ink on Yupo Paper 03.02.2026
Dear Life, My paintings are beginning to change with more color. The Inside-Out project is expressing some movement from the interior space of my body to the exterior world erupting in multiple ways. Earth energy. Human energy. Interconnectedness. I see this painting different today than the day I painted it. Wonder Land.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Acrylic Ink on Yupo Paper 03.14.2026
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