Love Letter to Life 09.11.2024 Imaging

September 11, 2024 | Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, My house is in boxes. I move 9.19. This morning, I have a campus studio visit to discuss direction of my work. This afternoon, I go over Petscan report with oncologist. This evening, I pack for trip tomorrow to attend my mother’s funeral.
Imagine a world that has solutions to live peacefully, politics that work, interventions that cure disease, people extending love to one another, plenty for everyone, a planet supported by and for all beings. I imagine this as I begin this day. Peace, Love, and Beauty.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 08.05.2024 Tempera

August 5, 2024 | Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, All things in life are temporary. This achy body will find relief when this month’s treatments are over later this week. The existential questioning about life and death will be relieved and answered by living in the moment. The weight of worry lifts while focusing on the palette of life’s colors. This is where creativity lives. This is where hope lives. This is where I find comfort and peace. Pots of paint. Prayers of love letters.
Your Truly, Pamela Rose

Tempera Paint on Notebook Paper

Love Letter to Life 07.28.2024 Ships Crossing

July 28, 2024 | Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, Today I return to Santa Fe after two weeks in the East visiting family and friends. My mother is declining and family with help is caring for her. My visit included lots of storytelling, listening, and letting Mom know she is loved. Visit to Maine refreshed my spirit. As I head toward the west, I contemplate the cycles of life and death, the miracles and pains that we experience. Bittersweet.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 06.30.2024 “Concern”

June 30, 2024 | Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, No cancer patient wants to hear from their oncologist, “This scan causes me concern”. The recent PetScan report revealed enlarged lymph nodes and lit up areas indicating new growth. Large B Cell Lymphoma is aggressive. We discussed staying on one more month of current treatment then CAR-T Cell Therapy. I have been opposed to this therapy after a failed Stem Cell Replacement in 2021. Now I need to be open-minded, meet a specialist and receive more information. The cancer journey takes another turn. Be present. Envision health.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose