Dear Life, A good report: PetScan showed minimal growth of lymphoma. One “lit-up” lesion and minuscule activity. I will continue non-evasive treatment for three months; no chemo or infusions. With the uptick of Covid and flus/colds, I need to protect my immune system by masking and avoiding large gatherings. It will be a quiet holiday season. I am grateful my body is rejuvenating and strengthening. Thank you friends for the support.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I feel the Cancer Trifecta: ANXIETY prior to a PetScan, HOPE to see improved images, and FAITH to accept whatever shows up. Tomorrow at 8:30am, I will have my final scan in 2024, bloodwork at 2:30pm and appointment with oncologist to discuss results. Please think of me and send positive vibes.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
PRM between Richard Hogan painting 11/2024
Dear Life, I have a familiar rash on my face, small red bumps near my eyes, nose and cheeks. In 2018, this was the first indication that something was off in my body. The bumps were biopsied: no cancer. The dermatologist diagnosed, air-borne allergies. I hope this is the reason now. I have a PetScan on Wednesday and anyone who has cancer knows the anxiety of scans, blood tests, reports, and treatment. Any change in the body causes my alarm system to go off. I am breathing deep through the anxiety and into the divine energy of the moment. Today, go to campus studio, paint and be with community. Movement is Life.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Acrylic Paint in Sketchbook
Dear Life, Today my Major Projects class will have a final critique with Shane Tolbert, teacher, and Jordan Eddy, writer and curator. I look forward to seeing my classmates artwork and hearing everyone’s comments. I have received many gifts being at Santa Fe Community College: uninterrupted studio time to explore new work, feedback from a variety of guests, students, and teachers, a wonderful community of people engaged in creative pursuits. I look forward to working in my campus studio and taking classes through May 2025.
yOUrs Truly, Pamela Rose
Acrylic and Collage on Paper 30″ x 22″ 11.14.2024
Dear Life, Sustenance: a. means of support, maintenance, subsistence; b. food, provisions, nourishment; c. something that gives support, endurance, strength. I love the dictionary. Sustaining my body, mind, and spirit is built on healthy thoughts, words, and actions. It includes all that feeds me. Today, the fridge gets cleaned out of “holiday” leftovers and will be filled with easy to fix nutritious food. The campus studio will be prepared for a mid-week critique as I finish up work then prepare art to be moved home. This is all sustained by an incredible Life Force, a gift from my Higher Power, living in and through me, and connecting to community. Thank You.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
SFCC Campus Studio 11.25.2024
Dear Life, I love Dr Seuss books and love these ceramics. They delight me with their shapes, lines, and color. New addition to my happy home. My best art “finds” are from local artists. I am grateful to live amongst a large community of creatives who inspire me. My life is enriched by their presence. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, When the paint serves up pastels, my art critic shakes her head and sneers, “Really?” Why such a reaction? I spoke back to the inner critic, “This is how my spirit moves me.” Let my joy and peace be felt amidst the grief of loss, the turmoil of world events, the upside-down political climate, the challenge of cancer. Let my heart feel my deceased mother tapping me on my shoulder and hear her whisper, “I love this painting”. I will bring this painting home, hang it, and call it, Rosie. Missing you, Mom, during this season.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Acrylic and Collage Painting 30″x22″ 11.21.2024
Dear Life, We are entering the season of holidays. I enjoy this time of year, the gatherings, festivities, displays of lights and big bouncing Santas and decorations beginning to show up everywhere. These are outward signs of people sharing their gratitude, joy, and hope. I am conscious that we bear the challenges of living. I am grateful that when we come together in community, we lighten the weight of our individual burdens. Spirit connection leads to love and love is greater than darkness. Lean into the light of love with me today.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
30″x22″ Painting and Collage 11.18.2024
Dear Life, I can’t help but wonder what the heck is going on inside of me, not every minute, but a daily inquiry. What is the cancer up to? Is it gone? Are my healthy cells multiplying faster than cancer cells and able to fight lymphoma? I have a three month reprieve from the “heavy metals” while taking something with no side effects. I get a Petscan on 12.11.24. We will see then what the report shows. I am grateful to feel well and have vitality.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Acrylic and Collage on Paper 33″x22″
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