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Love Letter to Life 09.19.2024 Chapters

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, On 9.14.24 the funeral and luncheon for our mother, Rose Markoya, was everything she wanted and it was beautiful. In the evening, family members gathered again for a pit fire and told stories. Heartfelt and healing. I flew to Santa Fe on Tuesday not physically well and tested positive for Covid on Wednesday. Ugh! Today I move. A friend will manage the movers and I will keep my distance, pointing and saying, “That goes there”. Dear friends, send me some love and energy. Chapters are closing and beginning.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 09.11.2024 Imaging

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, My house is in boxes. I move 9.19. This morning, I have a campus studio visit to discuss direction of my work. This afternoon, I go over Petscan report with oncologist. This evening, I pack for trip tomorrow to attend my mother’s funeral.
Imagine a world that has solutions to live peacefully, politics that work, interventions that cure disease, people extending love to one another, plenty for everyone, a planet supported by and for all beings. I imagine this as I begin this day. Peace, Love, and Beauty.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 09.08.2024 Changes

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, I am preparing to move from my apartment of 3 years to Condo X. Packing has begun. Just finished 14 days oral chemo meds and 5 hour infusion. Monday is PetScan and Wednesday Oncology appointment to go over report. Thursday I leave for CT to attend my mother’s memorial service. I’ll return to Santa Fe on the 17th and move on the 19th. Friends and professionals are helping. I feel cared for and supported. A small dragonfly appears daily reminding me of grace as I move through these changes an hour at a time.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 09.02.2024 Adrenaline

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, When the mind wakes me early, fear tells me I won’t have the energy needed for the day. It is simply not true. The mix of excitement and adrenaline kick in as I give away things and pack. Yesterday friends joined me at Condo X (yes that IS the address) and we toasted to the new place I will soon enjoy living in. A quiet beauty resides in the 12 acres of mature landscape and 70’s architecture. There is a club house with heated pool and gym.
I am swimming into my future.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Graphite Drawing 08.01.2024

Love Letter to Life 09.01.2024 Circadian Rhythm

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, My circadian rhythm is off. No matter how tired I am, truly exhausted, my body lays awake while my mind trips through a variety of topics: moving by 9/19, multiple oncology appointments, PetScan, cancer treatments and oral meds, mother’s death and upcoming funeral, storage needs, art class starting this week at community college that I must attend in order to keep campus studio. I know this “sleeping disturbance” will change. Acceptance and some melatonin will help.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Tempera on Paper

Love Letter to Life 08.28.2024 Mother’s Funeral, Cancer Treatments, and Moving

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, I signed a lease for a condo in Santa Fe. I get the keys Sep 1st. Cancer treatments and medical appointments fill the calendar until Sep11th. I fly to CT Sep 12 -17 for our mother’s funeral. Mover’s are booked for Sep 19th. Yesterday I had the thought, “I am at a breaking point”. The feeling passed. I went to bed at 9:30pm exhausted. Woke at 5:00am feeling rested. An hour at a time, life is manageable. The grief waves through me. The high tide of feelings recede. Life is a process of surfing.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Tempera on Paper 08.27.2024

Love Letter to Life 08.22.2024 Rose Markoya 06.23.1930- 08.21.2024

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, My mother has passed peacefully from this world. Her large spirit touched the lives of a large family, friends, and everyone she met. A few weeks ago while I visited, she told stories with flourishing detail. “The Hungarian Tank” rolled with determination, stubbornness, and a heart that wanted a better life for her children, grandchildren, and neighbors. She was quick to put a homemade meal on the table and give leftovers to everyone. Rosie, you are the Queen forever now.

Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Photo on her 94th Birthday with granddaughter Violet 06.23.24

Love Letter to Life 08.18.2024 135 X 2 = 270

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, The past week was consumed with seeking a new place to live (still looking) with one “day” off to re-center in the studio. As I walked through the door, my shoulders went down and I sighed. Felt so good to be in my quiet space. I did this painting to “focus”. Making art grounds me, clears my mind, gives me a boost of energy. For decades, I’ve experienced a spiritual connection during my creative practice: Focus, Structure and Community. All three are essential for my well-being. Thank you for being community.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Tempera on Paper 08.16.2024

Love Letter to Life 08.15.2024 Covered Wagon

| Pamela Markoya

Dear Life, I am preparing to move my wagon with no destination in sight but I have faith the best “home” for me is on the horizon. The early pioneers must have felt this way while rolling across the vast landscape looking for “gold”, seeking a better life at great cost. I am seeking a place to lay down my head in peace and nurture my body and soul.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Covered Wagon by Erika Wannamacher