Dear Life, Redemption occurs as grace lifts the stings that happen in my human life. My mind can change the narrative from an impossible story to a hopeful one. This happens when I listen to my heart and let love touch me, through your words, smiles, beauty, the rain, the planting of an idea… a new tree of life.
Now off I go to the hospital for blood match test. Oh, the joys and wonders!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Trepidation is a nervous or fearful feeling of uncertain agitation: apprehension. The feeling comes over me as Denver approaches. Many unknowns: finances, transportation, housing, treatments, helpers. Spiritual heavy lifting is required to not succumb to negative projections and depression. I read inspirational words, pray, meditate, call friends and therapists, make art and “to do” lists. I live a minute at a time into the day with an open heart. These positive actions clear out the Trickster Trepidation and put Trust into play. This helps living with or without cancer. Good Medicine.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Last round of chemotherapy kicked the hell out of blood counts; so low I need transfusions on Wednesday. I could go to the emergency room today but, hey, who is in the ER? Lots of sick people. I don’t want to chance catching anything. My life force is strong but the fuel tank is low. Prescribed antibiotics for a week. Easy Does It. This Little Engine Can.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, My best friend in CT, Carole showed up at Carlton Rehab this morning, surprising Rosie who was up and dressed in sparkles! Carole gave Mom gifts and big love. My smile is ear to ear looking at the selfies and video Carole sent me. She knows Rosie… flowers, cupcakes and Happy Birthday Beautiful! And Carole knows me… inside and out…You are the best. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose.
Dear Life, An afternoon at Arioso with good friends and extraordinary chef/artist Julian Sibony is good medicine for the Body and Soul. The “kitchen-garden bistro” is tucked off the highway in Chili, NM offering a unique dining experience. Thank you chef Julian, Marilyn (birthday girl) and Sandy, for a festive and wonderful gastronomic day.
A bite of heaven on earth with cake! My belly is round and full of love.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Mom turns 91 today. I am so grateful for the wonderful visit in April when she and Tracy, my daughter, met. So much joy. Today, Rosie is in rehab after several trips to the hospital. Her mind is sharp as a pin (she can tell you everything going on with family, past and present) however her body is showing signs of 91 years.
Let’s all send a shout out of love for Rosie via the airways for her birthday!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, My well-being begins within my thoughts and loving self-care. The daily Practice of Gratitude is a “view finder” for life’s gifts regardless of temporary challenges or setbacks. I am grateful for birds singing, healthy food and taste buds that work, visits with friends, the color aqua, good magazines for making collages, sobriety, healing energy, and freedom.
I am grateful to be alive today and see my fingernails growing!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I watched this video while hanging out in bed. Corita Kent has long been in my vision and an inspiration. Beginning in the 60’s, she took everyday language and created beautiful “messaging” images. Corita asked her students to look through a “View Finder” (a piece of paper with a square cut out of the middle) to “frame” what one sees. I can take this simple tool and become a Healing View Finder.
We change lives by finding and living into a new view of the future, one word at a time, one person at a time. Thank you for traveling with me.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Chemotherapy is challenging. I feel like my skin is wrapped around a bunch of active chemicals. It’s uncomfortable and tiring. Today I have one last injection then rest and recover. The calendar is set for “Little Denver” July 6-8th: Multiple Tests and “Big Denver” July 23-Sep 8th: Stem Cell Replacement.
I breathe into this moment and remember: LIVE and LOVE NOW
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
