Dear Life, Grace is the hand that extends across human failings and says, “Let me help you”. I fail, I fall, I hurt, and sometimes, I hurt others. Then Grace enters, again and again, and says, “Let me help you up”. Weakness turns to strength. Fear finds faith. Doubts rise into wisdom found in living in the moment. Grace is within me and all around me and extends outward with the hand of love. Thank you, Grace, and I love you, Life.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Photo Montage 2018
Dear Life, Pet Scan revealed most cancer gone except small cell group near spine. Round three of chemo will be in Christus hospital June 14-17th. I hope to visit family in the East in early July. This will boost my Spirit for the 2-3 months of Stem Cell Replacement Treatment in Denver followed by 4-6 months recovery back in Santa Fe. It’s a work in progress. The entire “team” is looking for a “home run”. We can do it!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Acrylic Painting 12.27.2019
Dear Life, Yesterday found me in discussions about medical procedures, tests, Denver date for another bone marrow biopsy, chemotherapy, stem cell treatments, and big questions: quality of life issues and what is important to me. Today after blood tests, I see oncologist to discuss Pet Scan result that will indicate next steps. I am grateful for the people who patiently sit with me, talk, and have moments of relief in laughter.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Mom was in the hospital again, saying, “this is it, the big one” but in 24 hours, she came home, chatty as could be. She told my niece, Kelsey, about the juvenile mishaps of my brothers and sister, calling them “criminals”. No mention of me, the Angel. I love and miss my family and look forward to “making good trouble” with them soon. Did I mention, Mom’s memory is perfect? We are having a good laugh this morning.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Friends, I deeply appreciate your positive vibes, prayers, help, and donations. This fundraiser is for ongoing and upcoming medical expenses. Please share with friends who may know me but are not on Social Media.
Thank you and Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I’m grateful to have Pet Scan behind me. The tech talked with me about his fight with cancer. We shared our “miracle” stories and smiled deeply into one another. This is how I get through the immense unknowns and shadows cast by cancer: connection with people and living inside of God. I feel comforted and safe. Peace and love and joy reside here.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, A celebratory week with a Super Full Moon. A window opened up within me asking: What are my choices? What do I need and want? What is important to be doing and experiencing along with the medical treatments? Reading a hefty manual “Preparing for Stem Cell Transplantation” is daunting. I am listening to my GPS: God’s Positioning System. Breathe.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Fate would have it for Arlene to stay another day YAY! We took that road trip to Taos. We met a new friend, Michael, and sat outside in a conversation for 3 hours that rolled inward and out, telling stories, affirming dreams, and reframing important questions: “Is this the one?” to the open-hearted inquiry, “Who is this one?” And “Will I swim towards the unknown or back to what I know?” The Full Moon guided us home. Our glowing hearts will continue to guide us. H O M E < L O V E L I F E.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, The Birthday celebration rolls on with flowers, crowns, gifts, and wishes. Yesterday,I said, ” I don’t want my sister to leave”. Well, alas, her flight is delayed causing problems with her connecting flight in Dallas to NYC. We’ve had an incredible 5 days of fun. Now a snafu. Life you are always listening. I wish for my sister to get home safely and on time. Really!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
