Dear Life, Arlene and I decided on an in-town day, enjoying tacos at Bumblebee’s, walking through a few shops, and driving to OJO Santa Fe where we laid in the grass and swung on the swing. Easy and Fun. Early evening, I felt inspired to do some urban gardening on my terrace. I smiled and said, “I have everything I need”. I do. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Birthday wishes, celebrations, gifts, and love have drawn a permanent smile inside of my heart. I feel it now. And I will reach there in the coming days and months. Love is like this: an expansion of you, all of you, who generously give your well wishes, support, and love. Thank you and love right back at you. Today, a road trip to Taos with Arlene. I love my sister and road trips!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I recently found this wedding photo of my parents. Young beautiful people beginning a new journey. Thank you Mom and Dad for giving life, generosity, style, joy, and love to one another, your family, and community. Mom is still in action, the Hungarian Tank, here on earth while Dad sends us all his love from above. I write this from the comfort of my bed. I am home. My sister is flying through the sky to be with me in Santa Fe. I am happy. Love to all.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I woke feeling sad and swollen from the chemicals. Seeing this pic uplifts me. My artist friend, Richard Kurtz visited with me yesterday. Inspiring to talk about our lives and art. He and his talented wife, Jennifer Esperanza, live in Marfa, TX and own a terrific store/gallery. I have enjoyed Marfa and doing an art residency at RULE Gallery. Excellent experience. Today, after chemo treatment, I look forward to going home to my loft. YAY!
Yours Truly , Pamela Rose
Dear Life, As the wind blows a few thunderstorms through Santa Fe, chemo blows through me. I am wired for chemicals, sounds, and every heartbeat, heard and seen on some big screen somewhere here. LIVE PAMELA TV. The nurses and I continue to share Miracle stories. Everywhere I look, I see and feel the gentle, professional, and caring human hand of Spirit in action. Christus Hospital has a Starbuck’s in the lobby and Olivia is bringing me a Latte and that, along with your loving messages, makes my day. Thank you. Love you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, There is nothing quite like the “wait” for the “get here now” phone call from the hospital. And it just rang in. I will be in Christus Hospital for the next three days for chemotherapy and treatments. Thank you for your positive vibes, love and prayers.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I looked out the terrace window at dawn and saw pink clouds over the mountains. This soothed my troubled thoughts. The unknowns of the future with health, cancer treatments, moving, and finances are daunting. The clouds reminded me of early sobriety when friends said to me, “Pamela, you are on a pink cloud”. I was so happy to be sober and in recovery. So for today, I let go of my fears and touch the beauty of this moment by remembering, I am loved and supported. The pink clouds are beautiful.
BE HERE NOW.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I was diagnosed with an aggressive cancer last year and again on April 1st, 2021. My sister Arlene Lawrence made Moon Pillow 2020 to help me heal, and this year, Sun Pillow arrived to continue the miracles of healing. On April 1st, Erica Hess walked into my loft with big love and this huggable Bunny. Lisa Larsen showed up recently with a Queen’s Crown, embellished with all her creativity. I have a circle of amazing love encircling me and fabulous bed companions!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Yesterday, I met my Colorado team, Dr. Mike Tees and Laila from Colorado Blood Cancer Institute where I will undergo Stem Cell Replacement Therapy, a treatment that can be equated to climbing Mount Everest. I told them, “The ‘miracle’ of meeting my daughter and grandchildren along with the love of my family and friends gives me everything to live for.” My preparation for Stem Cell Therapy is the intense chemotherapy I am having now in Santa Fe through June. I move to Denver in July or August for hospitalization and out-patient care for 2-3 months. Hope lives in every step towards health. Love carries me.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
