Dear Life, I will start treatments this week. Port placement is Monday. Tuesday- Saturday, I will be in-patient at Christus Hospital oncology ward where I will receive all the professional care needed. Then home for 10 days followed by two more hospital stays in May. We begin the first part of this treatment journey in Santa Fe where close friends are supporting me. I appreciate all the love being sent from everywhere, far and near.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I woke up and asked myself, “how do I want to be in this day?” Every moment truly is asking this. I have a rigorous chemo treatment plan out in front of me for the next several months however I know: I live a moment at a time. Right now, the light is beautiful in the loft, I love and am loved beyond measure more than words can express.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I flew to CT on April 2nd, (without my computer hence no letters) where I visited for 10 days, reuniting with family. It was a miraculous time of love, heart-felt sharing, and joy; the first in-person visit with my daughter, Tracy, and her children, Laurel and Christopher. My sister, Arlene, picked me up at the airport with a huge hug. On Easter, we surprised our mother when I walked into the kitchen. She stopped breathing! Then burst into tears of joy. My nieces and nephews, ages 2 – 32, were a delight to be with. I am filled with so much love and ready for the road of medical treatment and recovery in front of me. Here are a few pics of the trip.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, At 15years old, I gave birth to a baby and released her for adoption. On 1.14.2020, she connected with me through Ancestry. Then the pandemic hit so we’ve had a Zoom relationship. Today I fly to CT. Tomorrow, I will meet her in person for the first time. I return to Santa Fe on 4.13 to begin chemotherapy. I have two kinds of Lymphoma cancer but a heart of love and Spirit of life. So grateful for your ongoing support. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Yesterday, I had second vaccine shot. I’m in bed with aches and tiredness so I am reading, “The Cancer-FIghting Kitchen” from page 2:
“Dealing with cancer is enough to scramble anyone’s mental GPS. At a time when everything seems out of one’s control, cooking and eating well offers more than nourishment: it’s downright empowering… what’s at the end of your fork really matters for the body and soul” Feeling hungry now!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, No matter how unsure circumstances can appear, I feel peace within me that surpasses all understanding. I find beauty in small things, joy in a smile, love in connecting, life in living each day as well as I can. When a mood feels like soft shades of purples and blue, I appreciate their value, too.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I have connected with friends I’ve known most of my life. This is one of life’s best gifts: that feeling of picking up a conversation after 10, 20, 30, 40 plus years as though it had not stopped. Spirit connects us. Laughter, tears and love heal.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I have succumb to long hours of sleep with vivid dreams. This “dream time” is as important as my waking hours. I trust my Unconscious is working to support the overall wellness and healing of my Being: body, mind and spirit. So please do expect to hear from me or see me early. I am in my pillows and sheets office working until 10:00am.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I live in the high desert, my Soul’s home. However I grew up close to the ocean and miss it. My mind travels in the paint to the tides and waves of water. Feels healing. I will be swimming in the Atlantic this summer. It’s a date with the sun, sand, and surf.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
