Dear Life, Past 10 days, I have experienced a mild post-surgery depression coupled with the side effects of cancer meds that I take daily. Woke today with a clear mind, energy, and a lift in my step. Yesterday, on a phone call, I articulated what was happening in my body and mind, and this set up the “energy field” to move me out of bed and into a few household chores, eat a slice of quiche and watch the Jonah Hill movie, “Stutz” on Netflix. Recommend it. I also recommend reaching out to someone who might be going through a rough patch. We do this thing called “Life” better together.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Acrylic Painting on Paper

Dear Life, On the heels of good news, I went to Whole Foods (first solo outing) and conquered the aisles buying every “treat” I wanted: Chocolate cake, vanilla ice cream, warm cinnamon raisin bread, goat’s cheese to put on figs, sharp cheddar cheese, and fresh salad greens. Then I drove to a pizza place and got a 10 inch topped with tomato and mozzarella. My inner child loved every bite. This morning, my tummy is not loving the aftermath! Worth it.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

PS I also thought yesterday, all day, was Friday; Showed up for appts and a 12-step meeting scheduled for Friday! A friend kindly said, Pamela, “Today is Thursday”. Am I safe to be out one week since surgery?

Dear Life, No malignant cancer cells found in uterus except for lymph nodes where we knew lymphoma existed. Bloodwork looks good. Today I resume oral cancer meds and next week infusion. Happy to receive OK to travel mid-May to visit family in CT. The ups and downs, joy and fear, are lived through each day, in every life. What keeps us going? I believe it’s our life force. Faith. Love. A smile. A word of encouragement. Inspiration. Tears. Creativity. Laughter. A cozy blanket. Pizza (I’m craving a slice).
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Show Me Life, Acrylic on Paper, timeless

Dear Life, I have many sweethearts and many victories. They appear each day. I hope you feel my love as we share the tunnel of love today and everyday. YOU ARE LOVED.
The healing continues from surgery. Out into the snow for bloodwork late morning. A friend will drive me and pick up lunch from Clafoutis to take home. A departure from toast or noodles is welcomed. Glad to have an appetite. Grateful to have you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

PRM In the tunnel love… timeless

Home and resting. No pain but discomfort. Body healing. Mind peaceful.
Spirit grateful. Super Bowl going on in my tummy.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Thank you for sending me your positive thoughts and prayers.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, This photo was taken by my sister on 02.11.2020 during an ice and snow storm a few days before my first chemo treatment. We went downtown and enjoyed shopping, making snow angels, and eating. Today, I prepare for tomorrow’s surgery but also have plans to enjoy the day being with friends. A dusting of snow has reminded me…
winter is a time for healing.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

PRM 02.11.2020

Dear Life,
I came across this passage by Emmet Fox:
“Suppose your world seems to rock on its foundation. Hold on steadily, let it rock, and when the rocking is over, the picture will have reassembled itself into something much dearer to your heart’s desires.”
This is a strong message of faith and hope in times of challenge. I smile to think, the picture of my life is reassembling to something much dearer to my heart. Let it happen.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Blue Angel looking forward to the next road trip.

Dear Life, I spent most of the past week in bed feeling depressed. There is no escaping all the human emotions when you deal with cancer. Weariness hit me after hearing “uterine cancer and surgery”. A heating pad and Netflix were my daily companions. Fortunately, the “week of darkness” lifted when I woke yesterday. Plans to stay with a friend after surgery helped me feel better. Another friend is organizing meals and visits once I get home.
It’s a new day. It’s a long journey. I am not alone.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Road to Recovery PRM