Dear Life, My treatment day began at 8:15am and ended at 4:15. I left center as nurses and maintenance cleaned. I received a knockout 6 hour infusion of steroid, benedryl, tylenol and GAZYVA. The sonogram report recommended a uterus biopsy; appointment made for Monday in ABQ with a gynecology oncologist. New frontier, not ABQ, but the cancer possibly in my uterus. My body is recovering. I plan to go to Museum Hill and see the CLAY Exhibit and eat lunch at restaurant. My Mind needs to focus on my Spirit that is lifted by your positive vibes. I read all your messages yesterday and saw the friends thinking of me.
It matters. It really does. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Pic from 2020 when the chemo treatment rodeo started.

Dear Friends, Please keep me in your positive vibes. New treatment begins today big time. I appreciate your love.

Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Today FED-EX will deliver new oral immunotherapy medication. I have to be home to sign for it. Then I need to get bloodwork. Tomorrow begins new treatment, an infusion which takes all day, plus I start the oral meds for 21 days. Cancer-care can seem all-consuming. The next month is a steep journey. I must remember my life is much more. Breathe.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 02.2022

Dear Life, The peony is very beautiful. It starts as a tight bud then opens petal by petal until it is a magnificent blossom. I am reminded to let go of the tightness of fear as I open up moment by moment to a new day, life, love and grace. I am a peony.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I am grateful for the love of family and friends. It makes a good day better and going through the storms possible. I am blessed with a community that help one another. A listening ear. A set of feet to walk beside me. An encouraging word. A thoughtful card in the mail. A lift of a hand when my heart feels heavy. A movie night. A meal together. A text reminding me I am loved. I wish this for everyone, everywhere…
being loved and loving others every day.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 01.09.2023

Dear Life, Hear is a poem I wrote Tuesday:

“Pull the butternut squash soup and
Pomegranate out of the fridge
Grab the spiced pumpkin seeds
From the dry goods cabinet
Place it all in Bee Happy grocery bag
Take to a friend’s house.

Paint a spotted red watercolor in
Red Heart art-poem book
Write words one after another from
My ink pen with it’s own mind
“How do I spot love?”
This is how I live with cancer….”

Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor 01.10.2023

Dear Life, More scans will be taken of my insides today. I am the most photographed girl in Santa Fe. Technology helps the team.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor 01.03.2023

Dear Life, I begin again. Today at 10:00, education with oncology nurse about new medication, treatments and side effects. Tomorrow a sonogram. Next week, I start meds and infusion treatment. Resiliency, strength, and gratitude are necessary to keep putting one foot in front of the other. This is a journey traveled with many people. I am not alone. Here we go.
Yours Truly. Pamela Rose

Collage 01.05.2023

Dear Life, I came home after brunch with a friend, got into bed, listened to the beautiful song, “It’s Okay”, and cried a river of tears. Sometimes it’s just the only thing that I can do. Another friend called, picked me up, and out we went for a dinner then a house concert. It was a wonderful day. Quote from singer, Nightbirde:
“WE CAN’T WAIT UNTIL LIFE ISN’T HARD TO BE HAPPY.”
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor with Word Poem 01.04.2022