Dear Life, The “Atomic Bomb” chemo I received in Denver to prepare my body for Stem Cell Replacement left me wavering between life and death for several days. This changed me, rearranged me. My body and mind are in constant cellular rebuilding. Fatigue tells me to rest so my energy can do this all-important job. My Spirit whispers to me, You Have a Powerful Life Force. Trust This and Live In the Moment With Love.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Dr. Snyder walked into the examining room smiling. “Your body is working”. Blood tests showed incremental improvement. For a normal person the “numbers” can be considered critical but for a stem cell replacement patient, we had cause to celebrate. No need for infusions. Slow progress and healing. I’ll get blood tests weekly. In November, a PET Scan will determine if I’m cancer-free. Today, I am relieved and grateful. My body is working. Keep on multiplying healthy blood and cells!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Love Letter to Life 09.16.2021 Plot Twist
Dear Life, Housing is up in the air. I’m reaching out, word-of-mouth, for any leads on a modest rental or casita on larger property. I’m also open to a shared living opportunity. Please private message me or call if you know of any leads. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
PS Some one gave me an excellent lead. More to be revealed.

Dear Life, Three years ago, I moved into my loft fully expecting to grow a thriving art studio and business hosting workshops and salons. Health issues along with the pandemic sidetracked that dream. Unimaginable events occurred. The best was meeting my daughter Tracy and walking on the beach in CT. I hold this memory close to my heart. I still have the dream for a thriving studio including writing, making art, workshops and salons. Today, as I care for my body (priority), I meet with Siler Yard Realtor (double-masked) in hopes of moving into a subsidized artist community. Friends, be with me as we walk in there with the brightest light shining for a positive outcome.
Here I Go, Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Today is my daughter Tracy’s birthday. It is a miracle to be in one another’s lives. 53 years ago, I released Tracy for adoption. I searched for her after she turned 18 but didn’t find her. She connected with me through Ancestry.com on Jan 14th, 2020 when I was diagnosed with cancer. Tracy’s shining spirit lifted me in love, a mother’s love that can overcome any battle. I celebrate Tracy’s radiant, beautiful spirit and life that blesses everyone she meets, including mine. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, My painting of muse coming out from behind the veil and swimming. Muse continues to inspire me to stay above the water lines of life and not fear diving deep into the unknowns with curiosity. Care of my body is priority along with letting my Spirit guide my mind and actions. Today, I call Siler Yard Lofts to followthrough with my application; Talk with a few friends on the phone; Get my mail from the past couple of months; Go to a Zoom meeting for my sobriety. Smile, rest, eat little meals.
I don’t take life for granted. This is my day to live in gratitude, love and light.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I arrived at my loft on Thursday, 4:30pm, opened the door, felt sensory overload and thought, “I don’t live here anymore”. A shock. It was a long road trip from Denver to Santa Fe for my body which is still in critical condition. Eleven hours of sleep helped. Still unpacked. I need lots of rest. My Spirit is preparing me for upcoming move in October. My landlord didn’t renew my lease because they could get more money from someone moving in from out of state. Many changes happening. My focus has to be my HEALTH. My body is my HOME. Please send healing and strong, positive vibes towards me. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Arlene, my sister, organized an incredible Prayer Flag project. I received nearly 100 prayer flags filled with love and support while I was in the hospital for 24 days. Today, I spread them out on the hotel bed in celebration: I am returning to Santa Fe on Thursday, 9/9. One more clinic visit in Denver tomorrow. I thank those of you that sent me a “flag” and everyone for your prayers. This is a slow recovery. Your support is needed and appreciated. All eyes on coming home.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, A physician assistant told me “we set off an atomic bomb in your body” and my body said, “Yes”. I am grateful for the accurate description. My days consist of rest, clinic and hospital visits, some exercise and recovering from the atomic explosion. It’s challenging and uncomfortable. My body is yet to maintain healthy blood and immune counts. Daily fatigue is serious and other side effects are being managed. However, yesterday, I was able to go outside for a walk in a park and see these flowers. HOPE. Keep the prayers coming.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose