Dear Life, I am on the receiving end of many prayers and positive thoughts. This fills me with love and strength. Thank you. I also send out love and light to my dear ones, near and far. We are family. We bring our hearts to one another. Today, chemo port flush, blood tests and oncologist appointment. I am grateful to be alive to love and to be loved.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

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Dear Life, Unfortunately, the Petscan was not clear. There were some little lights so a biopsy is scheduled next week. Living with faith requires acting in faith: being kind to the plumber who is here trying to fix the “no hot water since Friday” problem; having phone calls with family and friends; cleaning the bathroom; making a collage. My head and emotions have yet to fully wrap around the news. More information is needed. My body is staying in motion. Thankfully, it feels okay. I’m praying and reaching out for your support.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Waiting requires patience. I hope to receive results from Petscan today. A drive through northern New Mexico always helps me. The land is amazing. Gives me the sense of freedom and hope. This photo is from yesterday’s road trip. Today is my yearly physical exam. Yes, I still have to do all the regular, routine health stuff no matter how many doctors I see for cancer-related issues. My team is expansive like the terra firma. Gratitude to all.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Ojo Caliente 11.14.2021

Dear Life, A flower-full relationship: Solitude + Patience = Creativity, bloomed out of Cancer and Covid quarantine that still remains in place for me. I hung one of my framed Symphonic Poem paintings in the studio and while looking at it, placed this paper flower in the center. I have not had live flowers in my house for months due to immune system. So this flower has been nature’s representative. I very much like the arrangement. Dr. Tee’s told me on Wednesday, I can have live flowers and plants plus eat raw vegetables. A step for Pam-kind. Progress.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, There is power in images, one reason why I love to collage. No Petscan results were called in yesterday. I cut, glued, collaged, and felt Okay. I walked into my bedroom, burst out laughing and jotted down what I was seeing… “I live in a house where a head of hair is hanging on a door handle. Titled: Living with Wigs”. This image of a big tree looks like a big wig on a small woman in a jester’s dress. Thank You, Spirit, for tickling me just as I need it!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Found this pic in my Iphone photo roll: my foot stepping into the kitchen. Action shot by my Spirit after yesterday’s excellent meeting with Colorado Blood Cancer Institute team. Dr.Tees was pleased with my recovery, blood tests and wig. I was rockin’ a full head of fake wavy hair. The Petscan tomorrow will let us know: are the cancer cells all gone. All Angels on Board with prayers for a clear scan and also my acceptance. WHATEVER is a new prayer I learned yesterday during a 12 step meeting. One Step At A Time.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Arlene, my sister, sent me a MISS YOU card with collage materials including the quote seen here from Anne Lamott, one of my favorite authors: “To love yourself as you are is a miracle, and to seek yourself is to have found yourself, for now. And now is all we have, and love is who we are.” Lots of wisdom as I approach upcoming week of doctor visits, tests, and results, a day, an hour at a time. Let’s all be loving and love ourselves as we are. This is life now.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

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Dear Life, My hand has been imaging for my heart through collaging, drawing, and painting for most of my life. Vision Boards became popular somewhere in the timeline. My visioning is actualized daily and gives an “intuitive look” of what’s happening in and around me. So often, I look back on a page and see “that happened” is some mysterious way, certainly not of my hand. The handiwork of the universe is always present. I’m about to begin new books of collages, drawings, and paintings. We will see inside of me.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Active Faith puts the pen to the journal page each morning and evening inking truth and gratitude; sets the kitchen table while cooking the meal; readies the empty chairs to be filled with loved ones; places the art supplies on the studio table and pushes them curiously around; puts the new ribbon in the old Smith Corona manual typewriter and searches for that person who can clean/oil the relic all while a piece of paper is in the feed for typing who has visited today; asking “would you like to leave me a few typed words?”
Active Faith Renews My Senses. Fall back. Faith Forward.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

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