Dear Life, Yesterday I was discharged from the hospital after 23 days. So happy to be in Marriot Residence Inn Downtown Denver for next few weeks. I get to sleep all night in a big, cozy bed. Lisa is taking wonderful care of me, cooking real food and taking me for walks. Visits to CBCI clinic begin tomorrow where I’ll get tests. Need lots of rest. Post-hospital phase of the healing journey is in progress. Breathing deep into gratitude.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I am so grateful to be on the upside of the trench. Feeling better and stronger so tomorrow, Tuesday 8/24, I will be discharged from the hospital and move into hotel apartment with Lisa, caregiver. I’ll be in out-patient treatment at clinic for a few weeks. Now is the time my body builds up my immune system as stem cells multiply and rejuvenate. A miracle in progress.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

.Dear Life, It is hard to feel this level of fatigue and body discomfort. Fortunately there is no pain. My ANC count was at 0 (no immune system) for over a week. Today it’s 76 and going up. It takes every ounce of energy and focus to do a task. I feel like sleeping but have to get up, shower, move, eat, walk, sit in chair, read and write. Some days I have not been able to do much more than shower and rest. My wise body is working.
Praying and hoping for better days soon.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, 7 days since stem cell replacement; 0% Immune System, 100% fatigue and horrible side effects. This could go on for another 7-12. I’m in bed a lot, eating little and doing my best to not have a breakdown. Please send prayers for healing.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Medical professionals are providing great care 24/7. I’ve been in the hospital 12 days and counting. If all goes well, I’ll be released in 12 plus days. I’ll live in hotel close to hospital for post-treatments and checkups. The way my body feels is comparable to a massive hangover x 10. Yucky. Tastebuds are off. No appetite. I am homesick. So I do my best to be anchored in Spirit, conversations with staff, calls from friends and your messages of love. This little engine has certainly slowed down but I am still chugging along, a moment at a time. Destination: Cancer-Free and Healthy
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I am receiving Prayer Flags filled with loving messages and images. Thank you Arlene for sending packages out to friends so they can create a prayer flag for my healing. I am in the “slump” that lasts 4 – 7 days. 100% fatigue along with side effects from treatments. This body is working hard. I look at the Flags and am reminded: There is energy, healing, love, support, and radiant health within me and all around. Keep breathing. Remain calm. Trust the Higher Power of Life.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Today is the second transplant of stem cells at 11am. Then begins a long recovery in the hospital as my bone marrow begins it work renewing. This is a labor intensive process of body, mind and spirit to stay centered in the moment and trust in the miraculous healing experience. All your thoughts and prayers are felt and appreciated.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, This morning at 10:00am, my blood stem cells will be transplanted in my body. There will be a blessing over the cells. Please join in with your powerful prayers and positive energy. In the hospital, this is called Day 0, New Life. Tomorrow we will transplant again, another Day 0. It is quite a miracle to extend my life. I am grateful to be at this turning point. Thank you all for being with me. I am not alone.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I am in a process of health and healing that requires living in the moment with a hopeful heart looking towards the future. I visualize sharing time with loved ones, my hair growing, living in my new loft that is under construction, traveling, my toes in the ocean, kayaking with loons, breathing fresh air, seeing the seasons change, hugging everyone.
Day 4 of chemo treatment is about to begin. Sending out my hopes and love.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose