Dear Life, Allergies are disrupting my life. Coughing, day and night, prevents me from all-important sleep. Tiredness prevails during the day along with itchy eyes, post-nasal drip, runny nose. I take the usual medications, decongestant, antihistamine, and eye drops. Any advice from fellow sufferers? The pollens are taking me down!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Cold Wax Oil Painting 04.2023

Dear Life, Subaru “had me” with this ad. I cut it out of a magazine in 2019 and kept it within my eye’s view. Bought “Blue Angel” in 2022 and love it. This week I am getting ready for my sister’s arrival on Friday. Arlene is visiting for a week to celebrate my birthday on the 23rd. We are headed north to El Rito, NM for an art studio tour on Saturday, then south to Marfa TX on Sunday where we will hang out for several days. Road Trips! One day at a time. One trip at a time. Love and Live.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Subaru Ad 2019

Dear Life, The reunion with my daughter Tracy after 50 years of separation is a miracle gift in my life. I now celebrate Mother’s Day wholly. Tracy is a member of my family as I am her’s. I have two wonderful grandchildren. She has a grandmother, aunts, uncles and cousins who love her. To all the mothers in our families and everywhere,
Happy Mother’s Day. Thank you for your maternal love and wisdom.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Tracy and Rosie, my mother 04.2023

Dear Life, I was in CVS when my oncologist called to tell me the Scan results. “They’re excellent. Your lymph nodes have shrunk to normal and the lesions on femurs are gone. There is one lit up small area on pelvic. We will see what that looks like in three months. You are good to go on your summer trip.” Tears of joy. The new treatments are successful. My body is amazing. My heart is bursting from all the love. My gratitude is immense for everyone near and far including medical teams, family and friends, who are on this journey with me. Let’s celebrate!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Tests/Scans for now are done. Results will be ready by Monday. Now practice patience. I’ve started to plan an extensive road trip. My energy and overall health feel strong. Yes I have a weird thing happening on my thigh but hope it will heal sooner than later. If PetScan results look decent, I can skip a once-a-month infusion. This gives me a clear calendar for 8 weeks. I can take the cancer oral medication with little side effects anywhere. Patience. Persistence. Positive vibes. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Today 2:30-5:30pm are tests. First a mammogram and sonogram, followed by an hour of intravenous chemicals for an eyes-to-thighs PetScan and chest scan. I have to fast today but am allowed coffee now so I don’t bite off anyone’s hand. Yesterday the dermatologist told me the biopsy report was in: the clinical drug SURVIVAC injected into my thighs last year causing cysts, left an injection site cyst with “hole” on my right thigh that won’t heal; a side effect. So may need surgery next week and another biopsy. I was in Target buying toilet paper when I took his call. Felt like laying down on the floor but it’s full of germs. Fortunately my daughter called and I felt joy talking with her. Acceptance of life as it is. Please send me positive vibes today. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Acrylic Painting 04.25.2023

Dear Life, What is on my journal pages? Prayers, affirmations, notations, quotes of interest, questions concerning daily living and near future possibilities. The weather. What I ate for breakfast. The when, where, what, and who I talked to or visited with. Activities and events. Dreams, both sleepy time ones and heart’s desires. Scribbly drawings. Jokes. My Spirit likes to make me laugh usually at myself. I journal each morning to wake into the world around me. It’s the spiritual set-up for the day ahead and the reflection of the day that just passed. Is it helpful? Beyond measure.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor in Journal 05.08.2023

Dear Life, I pray, meditate, and do my best to live responsibly, but I am not peaceful in every moment. This past week, multiple unexpected medical events unnerved me. Ongoing tests and waiting for results weighed on me. I watched myself erupt abruptly a couple of times. So I pray, meditate, and talk with close friends to unravel the anxiety. Acceptance of cancer and life as it is stretches me. The key to living free is in the moment. Love and Forgiveness. Joy and Hope. Live in the moment.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Acrylic Painting 4.20.2023

Dear Life, It’s May and it’s filled with 3 weeks of heavy-lifting: medical appointments nearly daily. Monday, dermatologist did a biopsy “to be on the safe side”. I had a cyst wound that wouldn’t heal from cancer injection. Yesterday had bloodwork. Today see Dr Herbert, my oncologist. Lots to talk about. Tomorrow is 9-3pm infusion. Following weeks are many tests and scans. I’ll be lit up by radiation. That’s me the glowing girl!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose