Dear Life, Heading to oncologist in ABQ. It’s a windy, cold day. You are with me.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I am writing in my journal every morning LET GO. Let go of any fear. Do not parachute into the future: False Evidence Appearing Real. Let go of apprehension about the unknown. Trust living in the moment where everything is manageable. Tomorrow I have a uterus biopsy at 11:00am in ABQ. I will get there on time and be okay. It’s part of the process. Today I will enjoy a game of Scrabble with a friend and go to a 12 step meeting. Focus, fun, sobriety, and community. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

My Vintage Scrabble Board

Dear Life, The sun felt so good yesterday on my face while I walked around the grounds of Museum Hill. It’s healing to move the medication around my body during and after treatments. The museum exhibits filled my soul. Your messages of support kept and keep me upright, my feet stepping forward. The miracle of this fills my heart with the power of love. I hope you feel my love.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

PRM walking around Museum Hill, Santa Fe, NM 01.29.2023

Dear Life, My treatment day began at 8:15am and ended at 4:15. I left center as nurses and maintenance cleaned. I received a knockout 6 hour infusion of steroid, benedryl, tylenol and GAZYVA. The sonogram report recommended a uterus biopsy; appointment made for Monday in ABQ with a gynecology oncologist. New frontier, not ABQ, but the cancer possibly in my uterus. My body is recovering. I plan to go to Museum Hill and see the CLAY Exhibit and eat lunch at restaurant. My Mind needs to focus on my Spirit that is lifted by your positive vibes. I read all your messages yesterday and saw the friends thinking of me.
It matters. It really does. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Pic from 2020 when the chemo treatment rodeo started.

Dear Friends, Please keep me in your positive vibes. New treatment begins today big time. I appreciate your love.

Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Today FED-EX will deliver new oral immunotherapy medication. I have to be home to sign for it. Then I need to get bloodwork. Tomorrow begins new treatment, an infusion which takes all day, plus I start the oral meds for 21 days. Cancer-care can seem all-consuming. The next month is a steep journey. I must remember my life is much more. Breathe.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 02.2022

Dear Life, The peony is very beautiful. It starts as a tight bud then opens petal by petal until it is a magnificent blossom. I am reminded to let go of the tightness of fear as I open up moment by moment to a new day, life, love and grace. I am a peony.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I am grateful for the love of family and friends. It makes a good day better and going through the storms possible. I am blessed with a community that help one another. A listening ear. A set of feet to walk beside me. An encouraging word. A thoughtful card in the mail. A lift of a hand when my heart feels heavy. A movie night. A meal together. A text reminding me I am loved. I wish this for everyone, everywhere…
being loved and loving others every day.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 01.09.2023

Dear Life, Hear is a poem I wrote Tuesday:

“Pull the butternut squash soup and
Pomegranate out of the fridge
Grab the spiced pumpkin seeds
From the dry goods cabinet
Place it all in Bee Happy grocery bag
Take to a friend’s house.

Paint a spotted red watercolor in
Red Heart art-poem book
Write words one after another from
My ink pen with it’s own mind
“How do I spot love?”
This is how I live with cancer….”

Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor 01.10.2023