Dear Life, The peony is very beautiful. It starts as a tight bud then opens petal by petal until it is a magnificent blossom. I am reminded to let go of the tightness of fear as I open up moment by moment to a new day, life, love and grace. I am a peony.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I am grateful for the love of family and friends. It makes a good day better and going through the storms possible. I am blessed with a community that help one another. A listening ear. A set of feet to walk beside me. An encouraging word. A thoughtful card in the mail. A lift of a hand when my heart feels heavy. A movie night. A meal together. A text reminding me I am loved. I wish this for everyone, everywhere…
being loved and loving others every day.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 01.09.2023

Dear Life, Hear is a poem I wrote Tuesday:

“Pull the butternut squash soup and
Pomegranate out of the fridge
Grab the spiced pumpkin seeds
From the dry goods cabinet
Place it all in Bee Happy grocery bag
Take to a friend’s house.

Paint a spotted red watercolor in
Red Heart art-poem book
Write words one after another from
My ink pen with it’s own mind
“How do I spot love?”
This is how I live with cancer….”

Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor 01.10.2023

Dear Life, More scans will be taken of my insides today. I am the most photographed girl in Santa Fe. Technology helps the team.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor 01.03.2023

Dear Life, I begin again. Today at 10:00, education with oncology nurse about new medication, treatments and side effects. Tomorrow a sonogram. Next week, I start meds and infusion treatment. Resiliency, strength, and gratitude are necessary to keep putting one foot in front of the other. This is a journey traveled with many people. I am not alone. Here we go.
Yours Truly. Pamela Rose

Collage 01.05.2023

Dear Life, I came home after brunch with a friend, got into bed, listened to the beautiful song, “It’s Okay”, and cried a river of tears. Sometimes it’s just the only thing that I can do. Another friend called, picked me up, and out we went for a dinner then a house concert. It was a wonderful day. Quote from singer, Nightbirde:
“WE CAN’T WAIT UNTIL LIFE ISN’T HARD TO BE HAPPY.”
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Watercolor with Word Poem 01.04.2022

Dear Life, The PetScan shows cancer grew and spread. The Lymphoma cells are smart. They figure out what/where the drugs are then grow and spread. I am no longer on the Clinical Trial. Will begin new drugs in two weeks that will hopefully outsmart the cancer. I’ll take an oral medication everyday for three weeks then have a week off. Receive an infusion once a month. Repeat. The goal is to live well daily. I feel physically good. This is a new stretch in a long journey. Thank you for all the positive vibes and prayers.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

WC 11.29.2022

Dear Life, Today I meet with my oncologist at 3:45pm to discuss Petscan report and bloodwork, prognosis and treatment. I will remember this: Whatever I hear is heard best when I listen with the soft corners of my heart. All your prayers and making art help relieve the sharp edges of anxiety. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 01.03.2023

Dear Life, Cancer treatment is uncertain. I need your prayers and positive thoughts.
Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Miniature Watercolors