Dear Life, I am receiving Prayer Flags filled with loving messages and images. Thank you Arlene for sending packages out to friends so they can create a prayer flag for my healing. I am in the “slump” that lasts 4 – 7 days. 100% fatigue along with side effects from treatments. This body is working hard. I look at the Flags and am reminded: There is energy, healing, love, support, and radiant health within me and all around. Keep breathing. Remain calm. Trust the Higher Power of Life.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Today is the second transplant of stem cells at 11am. Then begins a long recovery in the hospital as my bone marrow begins it work renewing. This is a labor intensive process of body, mind and spirit to stay centered in the moment and trust in the miraculous healing experience. All your thoughts and prayers are felt and appreciated.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, This morning at 10:00am, my blood stem cells will be transplanted in my body. There will be a blessing over the cells. Please join in with your powerful prayers and positive energy. In the hospital, this is called Day 0, New Life. Tomorrow we will transplant again, another Day 0. It is quite a miracle to extend my life. I am grateful to be at this turning point. Thank you all for being with me. I am not alone.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I am in a process of health and healing that requires living in the moment with a hopeful heart looking towards the future. I visualize sharing time with loved ones, my hair growing, living in my new loft that is under construction, traveling, my toes in the ocean, kayaking with loons, breathing fresh air, seeing the seasons change, hugging everyone.
Day 4 of chemo treatment is about to begin. Sending out my hopes and love.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I received this beautiful painting from Bella, a friend for 27 years since her birth. It makes my whole body smile while living in an alternate reality with all the ups and bumps of hospital routines and chemo therapy. All the dabs of paint remind me of my stem cells getting ready to be planted back into me on Monday and Tuesday of next week: “New Life Days”. I’ve named Bella’s painting, New Life.
May my cells take root, blossom, and grow vigorously strong, cancer-free.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, After a bumpy first day, now adjusting. Chemo is twice a day: starts at 8:30am and stops at 11pm. Yep thats a long day. Plus every 4 hours have blood work and stats taken even throughout the night. An alternate reality. I walk the halls for exercise and see other patients. We talk supportively with one another; same club and language. Hoping to be moved to a bigger room with more sunshine. I’m an artist at heart who needs good space. Most importantly, I need good medicine and your love. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Today at 8:30am, I get admitted into PLS hospital and the steep climb begins: chemotherapy twice a day for 6 days. The experience feels like this: skin wrapped around a body filled with chemicals that are waging a war for life. My state of mind depends on breathing into my heart, a moment at a time, then breathing out hope for a victory: to be cancer-free. As all this is happening, I focus on each moment, each breath, each person helping me, each prayer that touches my heart. Breathe with me.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I get to rest today after 4 days of stem cell collection. We hit the mark needed to admit me to hospital tomorrow and begin next phase of treatment: 6 days of chemotherapy followed by 1 day of rest then 2 days of transplants with 15-18 days of recovery. Hospital stay will be 24-28 days. I’ve been in Denver for 11 days. I miss beloved Santa Fe, my loft, the high desert earth exploding with green after the monsoons and seeing my friends.
My real “home” is in my heart and I do feel you all touching me with your words of love and support. Thank you from a strong yet tired body with a grateful Spirit.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Doctors consulted and due to my compromised bone marrow, the stem cell number needed was reduced again. I’m in the clinic at 7am for the last collection to reach our goal of 2,000,000 for a safe transplant. Day of rest on Sunday then admitted in-patient on Monday. Major marker will be met today as we climb Mt. Everest.
Thank you all for your positive thoughts.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose