Dear Life, As the wind blows a few thunderstorms through Santa Fe, chemo blows through me. I am wired for chemicals, sounds, and every heartbeat, heard and seen on some big screen somewhere here. LIVE PAMELA TV. The nurses and I continue to share Miracle stories. Everywhere I look, I see and feel the gentle, professional, and caring human hand of Spirit in action. Christus Hospital has a Starbuck’s in the lobby and Olivia is bringing me a Latte and that, along with your loving messages, makes my day. Thank you. Love you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, There is nothing quite like the “wait” for the “get here now” phone call from the hospital. And it just rang in. I will be in Christus Hospital for the next three days for chemotherapy and treatments. Thank you for your positive vibes, love and prayers.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I looked out the terrace window at dawn and saw pink clouds over the mountains. This soothed my troubled thoughts. The unknowns of the future with health, cancer treatments, moving, and finances are daunting. The clouds reminded me of early sobriety when friends said to me, “Pamela, you are on a pink cloud”. I was so happy to be sober and in recovery. So for today, I let go of my fears and touch the beauty of this moment by remembering, I am loved and supported. The pink clouds are beautiful.
BE HERE NOW.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I was diagnosed with an aggressive cancer last year and again on April 1st, 2021. My sister Arlene Lawrence made Moon Pillow 2020 to help me heal, and this year, Sun Pillow arrived to continue the miracles of healing. On April 1st, Erica Hess walked into my loft with big love and this huggable Bunny. Lisa Larsen showed up recently with a Queen’s Crown, embellished with all her creativity. I have a circle of amazing love encircling me and fabulous bed companions!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Yesterday, I met my Colorado team, Dr. Mike Tees and Laila from Colorado Blood Cancer Institute where I will undergo Stem Cell Replacement Therapy, a treatment that can be equated to climbing Mount Everest. I told them, “The ‘miracle’ of meeting my daughter and grandchildren along with the love of my family and friends gives me everything to live for.” My preparation for Stem Cell Therapy is the intense chemotherapy I am having now in Santa Fe through June. I move to Denver in July or August for hospitalization and out-patient care for 2-3 months. Hope lives in every step towards health. Love carries me.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I hope to walk the beach with my grandchildren later this summer. From now until then, I have a rigorous treatment schedule: today meeting oncologist from Denver to discuss Stem Cell Replacement Therapy; I go in-patient Christus Hospital Mon.-Wed for chemo; June 3rd Pet Scan that will determine next treatment in Denver. I go a step at a time, a day at a time, with love, grace, and hope. And I go with You. I am not alone.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Today, my granddaughter and niece graduate from UCONN. My grand-niece turned 3 on Saturday. My family has expanded with new members over the past year. All of this and more activates an eternal hope within me as I go to multiple medical appointments from 8:30-2:00pm today. I go with your love and Angels all around me. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, My heart exploded and expanded in love as I put my arm around my beautiful daughter, Tracy, on 04.03.2021, when we reunited in-person after 52 years. We are so blessed to be in one another’s lives. Miracles happen. This is one of many miracles in my life today. Blessings and miracles to all mother’s, everywhere, every day, in every way.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, The wind howled and the clouds opened up in Galisteo yesterday where Jacqueline and I were visiting a friend who makes healing soups for me. She offered us “garbage bags” to keep our pretty little heads dry. I no longer have a fear of being a bag lady. How cute are we?!?
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose