Dear Life, I hope to walk the beach with my grandchildren later this summer. From now until then, I have a rigorous treatment schedule: today meeting oncologist from Denver to discuss Stem Cell Replacement Therapy; I go in-patient Christus Hospital Mon.-Wed for chemo; June 3rd Pet Scan that will determine next treatment in Denver. I go a step at a time, a day at a time, with love, grace, and hope. And I go with You. I am not alone.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Today, my granddaughter and niece graduate from UCONN. My grand-niece turned 3 on Saturday. My family has expanded with new members over the past year. All of this and more activates an eternal hope within me as I go to multiple medical appointments from 8:30-2:00pm today. I go with your love and Angels all around me. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, My heart exploded and expanded in love as I put my arm around my beautiful daughter, Tracy, on 04.03.2021, when we reunited in-person after 52 years. We are so blessed to be in one another’s lives. Miracles happen. This is one of many miracles in my life today. Blessings and miracles to all mother’s, everywhere, every day, in every way.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, The wind howled and the clouds opened up in Galisteo yesterday where Jacqueline and I were visiting a friend who makes healing soups for me. She offered us “garbage bags” to keep our pretty little heads dry. I no longer have a fear of being a bag lady. How cute are we?!?
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, This is the cover of an inspirational book my sister made for loved ones. It inspires me everyday. Cancer feels overwhelming. Life turning upside down. However, there are messages and blessings, life happening in miraculous ways, like two doves showing up on my terrace to do a happy dance for me while a friend talked me through fears and tears. Yes, miracles are real and Spirit is working through all of you and doves.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I received a platelet infusion yesterday because my body needs other people’s blood for a boost. I felt an Angel next to me while I sat in the hospital. My father passed from this world in July 2014 after a brief battle with pancreatic cancer. He went through it with strength, grace, and love. Now he whispers to me, “You can do this”.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, The first strands of my new, thick, wavy hair fell out this morning. I feel like screaming, crying, running. One of the side effects of chemotherapy is hair loss. I went through this last year. And it begins again. There are many losses with cancer. A cancer therapist is helping me with grief and acceptance. I am powerless over cancer and my life is forever changed. I am grateful there is a Higher Power that I can lean into big time right now. I lean into love. I lean into your strength and support.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, Blood results indicated platelet level too low for chemo so I will have a platelet infusion on Wednesday. Need to get my body stronger. Chemo/treatments in-patient will be in 2-3 weeks depending on blood results. Pet scan will follow and indicate if I go to Denver Hospital for Stem Cell Therapy in June. I felt my anxiety level rise high as blood results came in low and plans changed. Fortunately, there were Angels in the room, Dr.Snyder and Olivia. They walked me off the ledge. Thank you Angels and everyone for all your prayers.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
Dear Life, I woke from a dream smiling and feeling good. I remember these details: packing for the hospital and trusting the medical professionals that help me. I’m grateful my unconscious is messaging positive vibes. Bloodwork and Dr. Snyder at 10:00. Then brunch with dear Olivia at Madame Matisse. Begin counseling with Cancer Center Therapist at 4:00. Feeling Grateful. Have a beautiful day, friends.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
