Dear Life, Tracy is meeting my friends. It’s so wonderful for me for them to get to know her. Today, we head to AZ where Tracy will be running a half-marathon. Hope to see the balloons in ABQ as we drive. Road Trip starts now!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Tracy’s plane broke through the clouds yesterday at 12:30pm and brought sunshine! Lunch at Cafe Fina then home to show her my digs. We walked to the Capital Building where we saw an excellent fabric/quilting exhibit, “Weather or Not”, plus the Round House collection. Highly recommend you locals take a walk through the halls of our State house. We walked back home, hung out and ate my Turkey Chili for dinner. The beginning of a daughter’s visit, a dream come true.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, My daughter, Tracy, is on her way from CT to Santa Fe for 10 days, her first visit here. I’m happier than words can tell. We will be taking a road trip to AZ where she’s running a half-marathon. Tracy will meet my friends and we will hang out. Have a big Pajama Party! Perfect timing to uplift my Spirit. Another first in many miracles.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, My scan results indicated that cancer cells are back in several places in my lymph nodes and bones but not organs. Large C Cell Lymphoma is an aggressive cancer. It moves around, hides behinds healthy cells and then rises up. Immunotherapy treatments will continue. I was knocked off-balance for a couple of days. Then looked around and appreciated, there is a lot of abundance and good in my life. The clear scan in July was two steps forward. These results are a step back but I’m still on the journey. I appreciate all the support I receive from family and friends. Now out the door to the hospital for an echocardiogram. Me and my team work on weekends!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Yesterday I went to the Farmer’s Market after receiving chemicals for scans that make me a little spacey. Somewhere along the way, I lost a $100. I remember seeing it in my wallet while pulling out singles but possibly I paid $100 for a zucchini or a dozen eggs. Or I dropped it on the ground. Need to be more careful after treatments and scans handling money and navigating life. Someone has it and I thought, “Pay It Forward”.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, My sister sent me this beautiful card that I’ve placed on my desk along with my “love birds” and small gold heart in small Klimt dish that I bought in Vienna. Scans are done and we will see the results by week’s end. I’m happily drinking a Latte at home. It’s a beautiful day in Santa Fe so I’ll go to Farmer’s Market where the bounty and plentitude of Autumn’s harvest can be seen. HOPE IS A SMALL REBELLION.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, The day before a PetScan is always a bit edgy. I wonder, “What’s happening inside me?” Many questions surface to which I breathe into and answer, “No one knows what truly is next so live as best you can in the moment”. Today while fasting (a requirement for the scan) I will clear and clean the studio work tables. Go through materials, recent art, organize and set up for new work. Begin. This is my day, my gift of life to be lived with all the feelings and unknowns. Discover what is inside of me.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Yesterday I had an Immunotherapy infusion. I sat down and the nurse connected me with the drugs through my port (the device in my chest for drugs to go into and for taking out blood when needed in large quantities). Each time requires courage and fearlessness. PEMBRO is a trial drug. Next week, I have a PetScan so we can see what’s happening inside of me. We’re looking for clear results. Please be with me on this one.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, As the sunsets come earlier each evening, I smile thinking about the summer. I had an excellent vacation visiting family in CT and friends in Maine, good news from scans about cancer clearing out of my body (more scans are next week), day trips in NM with friends, and many days with my dear mentor Virginia Dwan before her passing. I am grateful for the opportunity to live a rich, creative, love-filled life.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose