Dear Life, There is power in images, one reason why I love to collage. No Petscan results were called in yesterday. I cut, glued, collaged, and felt Okay. I walked into my bedroom, burst out laughing and jotted down what I was seeing… “I live in a house where a head of hair is hanging on a door handle. Titled: Living with Wigs”. This image of a big tree looks like a big wig on a small woman in a jester’s dress. Thank You, Spirit, for tickling me just as I need it!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Found this pic in my Iphone photo roll: my foot stepping into the kitchen. Action shot by my Spirit after yesterday’s excellent meeting with Colorado Blood Cancer Institute team. Dr.Tees was pleased with my recovery, blood tests and wig. I was rockin’ a full head of fake wavy hair. The Petscan tomorrow will let us know: are the cancer cells all gone. All Angels on Board with prayers for a clear scan and also my acceptance. WHATEVER is a new prayer I learned yesterday during a 12 step meeting. One Step At A Time.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Arlene, my sister, sent me a MISS YOU card with collage materials including the quote seen here from Anne Lamott, one of my favorite authors: “To love yourself as you are is a miracle, and to seek yourself is to have found yourself, for now. And now is all we have, and love is who we are.” Lots of wisdom as I approach upcoming week of doctor visits, tests, and results, a day, an hour at a time. Let’s all be loving and love ourselves as we are. This is life now.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

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Dear Life, My hand has been imaging for my heart through collaging, drawing, and painting for most of my life. Vision Boards became popular somewhere in the timeline. My visioning is actualized daily and gives an “intuitive look” of what’s happening in and around me. So often, I look back on a page and see “that happened” is some mysterious way, certainly not of my hand. The handiwork of the universe is always present. I’m about to begin new books of collages, drawings, and paintings. We will see inside of me.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Active Faith puts the pen to the journal page each morning and evening inking truth and gratitude; sets the kitchen table while cooking the meal; readies the empty chairs to be filled with loved ones; places the art supplies on the studio table and pushes them curiously around; puts the new ribbon in the old Smith Corona manual typewriter and searches for that person who can clean/oil the relic all while a piece of paper is in the feed for typing who has visited today; asking “would you like to leave me a few typed words?”
Active Faith Renews My Senses. Fall back. Faith Forward.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

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Dear Life, I’m reading MARROW, Love, Loss, and What Matters Most by Elizabeth Lesser. An excellent memoir teaching me about cancer, family, intimacy, life. Each day, I embark on my Journey, inner and outer, experimenting with curiosity that sometimes is promoted by restlessness and big questions: Am I cancer-free? Can and will my desire for intimacy be met? What will I impart to my daughter? Will I travel to new places in the world? Where will my creativity land on when I sit at the painting table? Golden stem Cells. Will they proliferate and keep me alive in order to live and do a new body of work? Have a new life? A glimpse of what wakes up with me. Imprint.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, The blood results were good, holding at the low range of normal. I’ll happily take it! Stem Cells are miraculous. They multiply in the bone marrow then permeate my bone walls to morph into whatever cells my body needs. It’s the mystery of life going on inside of each and every one of us. I’m celebrating new freedom: safely masked and careful of contact, I can go to a store or a restaurant off hours when there’s not too much traffic. Outing today: I need a broom so I will go to ACE Hardware. YAY! A little late for Halloween but here I go! Thanks for all the positive vibes!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

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Dear Life, Meet my upstairs neighbor. We are enjoying a visit in our outdoor common space and affirming “sisterhood”. I am grateful to make new friends, walk new roads, and be feeling better. At 8:15am today, I’m getting important blood tests then see Dr. Snyder. Please send out those powerful good vibes, prayers, and thoughts. I’m hoping to see improvement. Thank you for the support.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, This question came into the collage and it is good to ask, “Where am I?” First, I look at my feet. Physical: Keep it real, in the body, and answer honestly. More energy each day, peach fuzz on my head, occasional setbacks coupled with fatigue. Mental: self-awareness and focus otherwise the ego-mind can take me to places I don’t want to be: cacophony instead of clarity. Emotional: being present, loving and careful about future calibrating. Live in this moment, in this day, and it’s manageable. Restlessness needs to be met with engaging quarantine activities: a walk in the new hood, reading that satisfies my soul, cooking healthy meal, binge-watching Apple TV series for night-time distraction. Spirit is in it all. Joy, tears, laughter, anger, solitude, curiosity, fear, faith, connecting with others.
Where am I? Alive and reporting from bed!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

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