Dear Life, The ground under me has felt like “shifting sand”. Denver test results are coming in with good news/bad news. All the news is giving the professionals information needed to provide me with the perfect treatments. I have a unique diagnosis. There will be a unique treatment. I will benefit and thrive in a unique recovery by keeping my thoughts aligned with the power and energy of love. I am immersed in a field of healing love with all your prayers, energy, and thoughts surrounding me. Keep the vibes positive. Thank You.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, A throwback photo that feels right for today. I am resilient and fierce in life and the battle with cancer. I’m also vulnerable and appreciate all the support I’m receiving from so many people and sources. One week out to leaving for Big Denver.
You let me know: I am not alone. Thank you.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, As the days get closer to “Big Denver”, there are preparations: a list of medical safe items to be purchased; packing appropriate clothes for in-hospital chemo and Stem Cell Replacement, and recovery; ordering cotton caps for my head (can’t wear wig or use make-up during treatments); arranging for my plants to be watered and loft to be cleaned while I am away, etc. The list goes on. The best thing I do is visit with friends before I leave. This helps me stay in the positive flow. Life is happening.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Making “vision collages” is an intuitive, creative process. I get quiet, reach inward, then choose images and words from magazines and snippets of things I pick up in life. The pieces come together collectively. My life is like the vision collage: It comes together collectively. Sometimes, life feels like the pile of on the collage table: messy and hard to see the bigger picture. I get quiet, touch the pieces of my life each day and trust the process. This is living in faith.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Awake at 1:30am, rolling over a few concerns about upcoming Stem Cell Replacement while living in hotels and a hospital. I am preparing for “Big Denver”. In the middle of the night, it feels scary. I love my life in Santa Fe. Morning light always brings a sigh of relief. I can do this. It’s lived a moment at a time, doing what is mine to do today, and trusting: the future unfolds in pink healing ripples and ruffles. I love pink. I love life.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Woke at 4:30am and couldn’t sleep so listened to a meditation on HOPE:
“the certainty that something makes sense regardless of outcome”.
The meaning-making moments I share with nurses, technicians, doctors, hotel staff, grocery clerks, friends, family, community, watching the sunset, smiling at a stranger, making art. These are events that make my life meaningful > spirit connected. Hope resides within me and all around me when I stop my restless mind, drop into my heart, pause, and notice > This is life. Live and Love.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose
PS Girlfriends, that’s Prada in the collage. Just sayin!

Dear Life, A successful trip to Denver with good buddies who took great care of me. Slept 11 hours in my bed. Results of tests will be next week. The “healing nest” in Denver where I will live with a caregiver after Stem Cell Replacement has to be within 20 minutes of Presbyterian St. Lukes Hospital. Many moving parts. Sending out good housing and care vibes for all the pieces to come together. Thanks for all your positive vibes, too!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, At 9:00 am, my friends, Marilyn and Sandy, pick me up and I pile into their back seat. We head to Denver, eat sandwiches in the car, and enjoy the drive. Upon arrival, we look at lodgings near hospital that will be suitable for “Big Denver” then get settled in our downtown hotel. Walk to dinner and have an evening to enjoy the city. Safe travels ahead!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I’m preparing for “Little Denver” trip July 6-8. Friends are driving and going with me. There’s two days of tests, scans, x-rays, spinal tap, and bone biopsies. We’ll look at hotels near hospital for Big Denver July 22 – Sep. The social worker told me on the day of implanting my new Stem Cells there will be a “new life blessing”. I will let you know the day and time in August so your prayers can be a part of it.
See you tomorrow Denver…
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose