Dear Life, This photo was taken by my sister on 02.11.2020 during an ice and snow storm a few days before my first chemo treatment. We went downtown and enjoyed shopping, making snow angels, and eating. Today, I prepare for tomorrow’s surgery but also have plans to enjoy the day being with friends. A dusting of snow has reminded me…
winter is a time for healing.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

PRM 02.11.2020

Dear Life,
I came across this passage by Emmet Fox:
“Suppose your world seems to rock on its foundation. Hold on steadily, let it rock, and when the rocking is over, the picture will have reassembled itself into something much dearer to your heart’s desires.”
This is a strong message of faith and hope in times of challenge. I smile to think, the picture of my life is reassembling to something much dearer to my heart. Let it happen.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Blue Angel looking forward to the next road trip.

Dear Life, I spent most of the past week in bed feeling depressed. There is no escaping all the human emotions when you deal with cancer. Weariness hit me after hearing “uterine cancer and surgery”. A heating pad and Netflix were my daily companions. Fortunately, the “week of darkness” lifted when I woke yesterday. Plans to stay with a friend after surgery helped me feel better. Another friend is organizing meals and visits once I get home.
It’s a new day. It’s a long journey. I am not alone.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Road to Recovery PRM

Dear Life, I’ll be at NM Cancer Center 8:30-3:30 for third infusion treatment.
Pre-operation tests and bloodwork were done at hospital yesterday. I look forward to the next week, free of doctor or treatment appointments until surgery 02/09. Cancer care is a full-time job. Life with everything in it is happening as well. I am grateful for everyone who are is of my medical team, family, and friends. Thank you. You are light beams.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Friends, The biopsy result diagnosed endometrial uterine cancer. I’ll get this right by the time surgery happens!
Your Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, The biopsy results diagnosed endometrial uterine cancer. Laparoscopy hysterectomy is scheduled for 02/09; in at 11:30 and home at 5:00pm. 6-8 weeks of recovery. Pre-op tests are this week. More biopsies will be taken during surgery. Oncologists and I will determine additional treatments, if needed, based on biopsy results. Lymphoma treatments will continue. I am transforming like a caterpillar into a butterfly. Letting go.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I made this painting in April 2020. Chemotherapy treatments were behind me and ahead of me plus Stem Cell Replacement. 2022 was a year of Clinical Trial drugs. The cancer cells fought them all. Now I am in a new treatment mode taking oral meds daily and infusions weekly with more to come. How does it feel? This morning, my body is exhausted.
Thankfully, I have a Spirit lifted by love and that makes all things possible. Example: Spirit says to my body, “Go make breakfast now”. And my body goes to the kitchen. Miracle!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Full day ahead at the chemo suite. Please send your healing vibes. I am grateful.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Needed 48 hours of rest after biopsy. Heating pad, journal, books, blankets and pillows are my companionships. Today I have to go out for bloodwork in preparation for tomorrow’s infusion treatment. I’ll also pick up some groceries to make hot soup and stew. Santa Fe is in a Arctic air mass. Time to hibernate. Rest and restore my body and mind.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Collage 01.20.2023