Dear Life, My letter went out with a lot of “cut and paste” issues. THank you all for your patience. Here’s what I had hoped to say:

Love Letter to Life 02.23.2022 Cooperation and Peace

Dear Life, This is a favorite photo from 2005. Peace. I am in a Cancer Clinical Trail that has protocols and requires me to follow them. So when I was told that I will have to take a half-dose of chemo meds beginning next week, I remembered, this a medical journey that has many turns in the road. Yes, the evidence of my blood counts improving without chemo are there. But now we reintroduce the chemo to see, is it the chemo that knocks back my blood counts. In two weeks we will know more. If counts are lower, oncologist said, “You are off chemo”. So we will see.
Yours Truly, A Cooperative Pamela Rose

Dear Life, This is a favorite photo from 2005. Peace. I am in a Cancer Clinical Trail that has protocols and requires me to follow them. So when I was told that I will have to take a half-dose of chemo meds beginning next week, I remembered, this a medical journey that has many turns in the road. Yes, the evidence of my blood counts improving without chemo are there. But now we reintroduce the chemo to see, is it the chemo that knocks back my blood counts. In two weeks we will know more. Oncologist said, “If the blood counts are lower , you will be off chemo.” So we will see.
Yours Truly, A Cooperative Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Good news on the blood count front: numbers moved up again and I’m close to a low normal. Hoping this supports my advocacy for being put in the no-chemo clinical trail group. Numbers make the difference. At 10:30, I see Dr Herbert to discuss the blood results and my progress. Then I receive third immunotherapy infusion. This is a 3 hour process. Please send supportive and loving thoughts my way. I feel them and am deeply appreciative.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, While walking, I found this book in the neighborhood “street” library. No cover but colorful so I took it for collages. When I got home, I saw it was Dr. Seuss’s Sleep Book. How the Universe likes to have a laugh. I am a sleep monster! Collages to come. Today, blood tests then taxes. This girl really knows how to have a fun day. Glad I slept 10 hours to be ready for it all. Hope you have a good day and sleep, too!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, The sun has warmed the air enough to walk. I like looking at the houses in my neighborhood and the way my shadow plays on the walls, fences, and sidewalks. Saw some green growth emerging from an earth that is still pretty frozen. Life Force is an amazing energy that I’m very aware of these days in me, plants, animals, and people. Nourish your Spirit and Life Force. Live fully and play wholeheartedly. Eat Pancakes.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Anemia is a condition that leaves me feeling fatigue with weakness. Such was the case yesterday. Between the cold temps preventing me from going outdoors to walk (helps my heart pump blood throughout my body) and the inside energy going down due to anemia, I succumbed to watching movies by mid-day. Note to self: Find happier films to watch. SPENCER and so many of the “nominated” films are depressing. Must learn to stop a movie at the onset of misery. Any suggestions of new films that will uplift?
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Woke to a light snow covering every tree limb and blanketing the earth. Beautiful. Sun is expected to appear by noon. Temperature is 23 degrees and will reach only 32 as a cold front moves through Santa Fe. Just made a list of family and friends I will call. Connecting with loved ones warms me from the inside. Making art captivates my attention. Writing love letters makes my heart happy. Also planned a few good meals to cook and eat: Mushroom Barley Soup and Chicken Parmigiana.
I’m a busy stay-at-home girl!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, A Full Moon is rising this morning and with it this message from The Power Path: “Optimism, gratitude, community and support are all themes around this full moon. Take some time to do some self care and to keep opening your heart to the love and support that is already there for you”. I wake each day, and during the first cup of coffee, I appreciate the life I have, the people in it, the place I live, the creativity that flows thru me, the birds, the weather … Then it all goes wild after the second cup! Wildly Good!!!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Thank you for all the loving messages yesterday. Keeps me above the waterline of critical anemia that throughout the day messages my brain “Go to bed”. Sometimes I succumb and flop down for five minutes with my eyes closed. Then like a carnival doll, I pop up and move. This always makes me laugh. My Spirit has other ideas for me like making art, walking with friends, eating good meals, going to zoom meetings, writing, reading, and watching a variety of TV. Sparked By Joy.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose