Dear Life, I discuss the blood and scan results with my oncologist at 10:30am. Blood counts, platelets, and neutrophils are down. They need to be higher. I feel fatigue due to this. My body is working hard so I hope we line up the right treatment. I am responsible to maintain my spiritual and emotional sobriety. Be present and believe in positive outcomes even as there are setbacks. Two steps forward, one back. Keep the faith.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, I came across this quote while reading this morning:
“Jung believed that humans produce in art the inner images the soul needs in order to see itself and to allow for transformation”.
I’ve been “imaging” in art for decades and know to trust my intuition when a change is on the horizon. Keep myself open and surrounded by positive influences. Let go of any negativity. Today I go for more blood tests. That’s the important real estate in my life…
my health and well-being.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Need a studio to paint. Could be a share. A space fell through so I’m putting a call out to friends in Santa Fe. Does anyone know of an affordable studio space where I set up a table, easel, and paint? Studio at home will remain active for collage and drawing. This is my home studio. I need a place that I can work on walls and get paint on the floors.
Private message me, email or call. Thanks! Create Forward.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Pet and CT Scans done and Heart Monitor neatly stuck to my chest. Results will be coming in over the next two weeks. Wonder what that monitor will read especially while I play Aggravation with friends! The sobriety celebration continues with friends today. Games and food. Life is good.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, It’s 18 degrees and lightly snowing. In an hour, I go to Xray Associates for a Pet Scan (2 hour procedure) and at 2:00pm Christus Hospital for a heart monitor that I have to wear for two weeks. Fortunately, I’m filled up on the love and well-wishes sent to me yesterday celebrating my 41st sobriety anniversary. Thank you all for being on this journey with me, a day at a time, an hour at a time.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Today, I am grateful to share and celebrate 41 unforgettable years of sobriety. Thank you all for the community, love, support, and wonderful life! Miracle of Grace!
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, The blood test results: slightly down. This likely puts me in the “no chemo” Clinical Trial group. I will know next Tuesday when more blood tests are seen and I talk with Dr Herbert, my oncologist. I feel grateful for each day. Right now, I’m excited about the opportunity to paint on a large scale. I’ll be working in a friend’s studio while he travels possibly beginning next week. The prospect of stretching my creativity is exhilarating. Inner landscapes. Studio at home will remain active for collage and drawing. Spring Forward.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Woke to snow. Blue Angel will be take me to the Cancer Center for blood tests at noon. Just finished a week of chemo meds and will find out how it affected my blood counts. This and other factors will determine what Clinical Trail group I will be in going forward for 22 months. I’m grateful to own a car that loves the snow and that the center is only 10 minutes from my house. Feeling hopeful.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose

Dear Life, Thank you for the outpouring of support. It’s been 21 years since I bought my 2001 Outback. Subaru could use me for an ad. Then again, they wouldn’t be selling too many cars if all their customers were like me! Yesterday, I sold the Outback. It felt weird leaving the White Stallion in another driveway. However, this morning I woke to this Blue Angel outside my door. I am grateful and looking forward to taking a drive north.
Yours Truly, Pamela Rose